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Wednesday, February 28, 2007, 8:27 PM
having free period now, so i'm in the school library blogging! haha weeee. oh man, it's such a cold day today. havnt stopped raining since this morning! i feel like i'm walking around in an icebox. but you know what? i prefer this weather than the usual scorching and humid one. i like it when it's coool... haha!
ok anyway i ponned physics lecture just now. hahaha i am getting naughty! i'm the physics rep and i pon physics lecture. man i'm corrupted. haha! we went to the grand stand to play poker and tai tee. i just learnt how to play poker, havnt gotten addicted to it yet cause i still dont really understand the rules of the game. shaun said that it's fun when you bet with money. oh well, maybe i shall go up to class and join the rest in poker later. only me and bev are in the library now blogging. the rest are in class playing poker! haha my class has turned into this gambling den man. so cool right?? lol. speaking of gambling, i dont mind working in the casino next time. it would be quite fun! but my aunt is surely going to say "no diane, you cannot work in the casino. it is a place of sins. if you work there, you'll get addicted to gambling...." blah blah blah. haha see how first la, still havnt really decided what i want to be next time.
ohoh you know what? today was the FIRST TIME that i cursed at a guy. yes it really is! i may use vulgarities online and all, but i dont actually say it out loud to someone. well i broke my record today. this was what happened. we were playing bluff, then dong dong was sitting behind me. so he saw my cards. when it was my turns, he knew that i had to lie, and know what he said? he said OUT LOUD "ohhhhh diane's going to bluff...." that really got to me so i turned around and SHOUTED, as in really SHOUTED, "FUCK OFF!" then i heard my classmates go whoahhhhh. HAHAHAHAHAHA. but omg, that REALLY FELT GOOD. the minute those words left my mouth, all my anger disappeared as well! then i immediately said sorry to him, in case he got pissed or scared or something. HAHA! maybe next time whenever someone pisses me off, i should just swear at them immediately. that way, i will not be pissed the whole day and all. haha!
the week's coming to an end. oh no oh no! time's passing too quickly! mr time, SLOW DOWN DUDE! i have only two more days with my beloved class. noooooooooo! i will seriously miss my class. these 2 months, i've come to bond with all these wonderful peeps and now that we're going our separate ways, i feel like crying! i will never forget all those wonderful moments that we've shared together. i still remember the first day meeting my classmates. i sat down in front of weiting and commented "SHIT! OUR CLASS HAS SO MANY GUYS! OMG..." then she went "yeah yeah! oh noooo..." then i said something mean, like "ew, none of them are hot!" haha well now i take back what i said. i was being a shallow cow, all the guys in my class are nice and hot! all of you look great to me! haha! how fast time passes man, in a blink of an eye, we're all going our separate ways already. I WILL MISS T11 LOTS AND LOTS! we must still meet up when we're in our new jcs and all. keep in touch!
this is so weird, i dont have that urge to blog about speedo today. why ah??? does this mean i am getting over him? haha! oh well, i dont know. anyway i might blog again later tonight, i shall go to friendster now. lol
, 6:57 AM
I shouldn't love you but I want you I just can't turn away I shouldn't see you but I can't move I can't look away I shouldn't love you but I want you I just can't turn away I shouldn't see you but I can't move I can't look awayAnd I don't know how to be fine when I'm not 'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop[Chorus:] Just so you know This feeling's taking control of me And I can't help it I won't sit around, I can't let him win now Thought you should know I've tried my best to let go of you But I don't want to I just gotta say it all Before I go It's getting hard to be around you There's so much I can't say Do you want me to hide the feelings And look the other way And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not 'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop [Chorus] This emptiness is killing me And I'm wondering why I've waited so long Looking back I realize It was always there just never spoken I'm waiting here...been waiting here[Chorus]this song totally fits what i'm going through now. wonder if jesse went through the same thing. lol
Tuesday, February 27, 2007, 6:24 AM
i'm feeling super drained today. so many things happened. alright shall start from the beginning of school.
i wanted to pon ethics class today to finish up our history script but we didnt pon it in the end. ethics was kinda fun surprisingly. we played broken telephone. i totally messed up the message man. it was supposed to be like "he failed physics and chemistry, but passed project work..." SOMETHING LIKE THAT. but i passed on "he failed physics and chem, barely passed project work. so he needed comfort and went to indulge himself in PAOS." LOL. jiggly, that was totally dedicated to you! haha! then we played Simon Says after that. you know games like that may sound boring and lame, but having not played it for a long period of time, when you play it again, that sense of excitement returns and it's like playing it for your first time!
during econs, we got a chance to view all the other groups' videos. haha everyone did a great job! i asked mrs koh if she could show us other classes' videos, cause i was kinda hoping to get a chance to see speedo in the video, hahahhaha. but she was being an ass about it and said NO. blehhh. she's such a meanie! alot of ppl didnt do the tutorial so she sent them out to do it. and she made those in class stand. to earn yourself a seat, you gotta answer a question correctly. so ridiculous i tell you. she thinks she's being fun but uh, FUN MY ASS MAN. so i volunteered to answer her first question cause i wanted to sit down, i answered like 2/3 correctly and she didnt allow me to sit! i felt like slapping that old hag. i seriously pity her husband and kids man.
history tutorial was fun! we got a chance to act out our skits. hahaha i had no idea that fishball could do a kickass thai accent! he was supposed to be a thai monk, and apparently he just made it all up but it seriously sounded damn fluent and convincing. even ms soh and ms johnson were impressed! speaking of ms johnson, i think she got the wrong idea about me! she thinks that i like mr. lee or something. apparently he told her "juicy" stuff. WTH. if he thinks that i'm always smiling in his lessons, cause i like him, HOW WRONG HE HAS BEEN! the reason why i smile, is because always during his lessons, SPEEDO WOULD SPEED PAST MY CLASS! weeeeeeeee. yeah, so obviously i would be grinning like some idiot right? omg, i think i need to talk to mr lee and explain to him that I DO NOT LIKE HIM THAT WAY. I LIKE SPEEDO AND ONLY SPEEDO.
my class decided to pon physics tutorial today since sweaty-belly tan is doing reservice. we went to town and it was fun! i went shopping for birthday presents. haha. oh man, my fave tranny isnt working at bodyshop anymore!! OH KATE, WHERE ARE YOU NOW??? ok i sound like i love her, better shut up about kate. you know, if you want to tell on us. then dont be a bloody hypocrite and pretend to play along ok? CAUSE I HATE HYPOCRITES. you dont have to lie to me, making me believe that you're in this together with us. why do you have to be such a goodytwoshoes?? urgh if i cool down by tmr, you're lucky. if i am still steaming mad, well all the best to you man. GREAT. just the thought of your face now makes my blood boil. URGH. i mustnt be pissed cause i'll get wrinkles! SMILE DIANE! think of...haha nvm! i'm smiling already=)
i cant wait for tomorrow! it'll mostly be lectures and pe. weee can slack! oh boy, just the thought of seeing you again makes me highhhhhh. LOL. ok shall stop blogging now, BYE WORLD!
Monday, February 26, 2007, 4:52 AM
ok i really am going to restrain myself from blogging about speedo, the urge to blog about him is damn strong since quite alot happened today. BUT i shall not blog about anything. i'll keep it all to myself and treasure those moments=)
alrighty, had math test first thing in the morning. it was hard since i didnt know how to do most of the questions. during math tutorial later, mr lee said our class only had 3 passes. OH MY. haha the average was about 10 plus over 40. lol OUR CLASS RAWKS MAN. pe today was a killer! we had skipping activities. that sounds so simple and.....harmless right? well it aint so! it was a KILLER. we skipped about 5 sets of 50 and played stupid skipping games like helicopter. utter rubbish i tell you. i never liked skipping as a little girl, and i still dislike it! we also had to do many many push ups. after pe, i looked and felt like shit. my face was like all red, hair all over the place...basically if you saw me, you would think that i just chased a buffalo or something.
it was such a long day today, classes ended at 4. practically at about 2, i started my yawn-athon. it's so damn hard to stay awake, given the weather and all. maybe i should bring sweets to school, perhaps that would help. went to the grandstand and gym with bev and alex after school. it was great=)
you know, i really really want to tell you off. i'm still quite pissed at you over that incident. i just cant treat you the same way as i had before. every little thing you do bugs me, your voice, your face, your actions.... if my attitude towards you is cold, i'm sorry. it wasnt intentional, i just cant help it. it's the last week of school, i hope that i'll get over this and treat you like how i used to. if only i can master the art of concealing my emotions, maybe that way i wouldnt hurt people easily. i have given up smiling at people that i dislike, cause my smile would be so forced that it would look painful/constipated. i really pray that this last week in cj would be a memorable and fruitful one, i will try my best to be nice to the people that i uh, dislike.
went to island creamery for the first time today. it was a great place! nutella rawks!! lol. ok i need to go shopping soon! my dad's birthday is on wednesday and i havnt bought him anything! i felt really bad when kor kor called me and asked me what colors my dad liked. ahhh i'm such a bad daughter!
Saturday, February 24, 2007, 6:26 PM
I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm starring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head
I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
Chorus
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you down-on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
It dont do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't coming out, we're not going anywhere
So why cant I just tell you that I care?
I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you worth it
Yeah...
[Chorus]
What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say
I guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
Things I'll never say-Avril Lavigne
, 5:49 AM
woke up at 8.30 this morning. it's kinda sad that i seldom get dreams nowadays. haha anyway went to kian's house to do the econs project. i took the train to choa chu kang to meet bernice. she was late but i didnt mind cause i was sitting there, daydreaming as usual about speedo=) even the noisy malays camwhoring beside me didnt bother me. behold the power of speedo! he can make the world disappear! haha!
met kian,sean,bev and mich at yio chu kang station. mich is so cute! she said she banged against the chairs or something, and she is quite clueless when it comes to taking trains. haha! anyway at kian's house, we brainstormed the script for our video and stuff. then my stomach started complaining so we headed down to a nearby coffee shop to have botak jones! i had botak burger, it was AWESOME. there was this table of guys sitting behind us. when i was eating my yummylicious burger halfway, i felt someone starring at me. so i turned around, and noticed this blue shirt guy from the table behind us starring at me. FREAKAYE. and it was quite revolting actually. even sean noticed the guy starring at me! if it's some hot guy, then i wouldnt feel so disgusted but that guy just looked downright screwed up. he reminds me of a perv!
haha anyway after lunch, we got down to serious business. we started filming the video. that was fun! cause we kept laughing and screwing up the video. haha! i was supposed to be this historian, so kian lent me this denim shirt and i bunned up my hair. according to mich, i looked kinda serious. lol can't imagine me being serious right? haha! we finished filming at about 5.15 then i headed down to ang mo kio central.
met cheerin,yuhao,janan and brendan at ang mo kio central. cheerin is such a doll! she gave us all a treat at seoul garden. THANKS CHEERIN! believe it or not, it was my first time dining at seoul garden. haha brendan commented "you never come here with your friends before? why so swaku one?" LOL! yes, i am very swaku. anyway it was a great experience cooking my own food! at first, i was damn scared that the oil would splatter on my skin. but it was alright in the end=) we saw this fat dude with a huge beer belly. and janan was like "wa full moon!" omg that was damn funny! haha! all the waiters/waitresses were sucking up to cheerin since she's a special customer there. it was quite funny everytime one of the waiters asked "hi, can i change your plate?" haha according to the rest, it is actually very hard to get your plates changed since seoul garden is always so crowded and all. it was fun chatting over the meal, we talked about random stuff like uh... GHOSTS! haha. cheerin taught me a way of seeing ghosts. let me share it with you guys. at 12 midnight, you have to stand with your legs spread apart and look down through the gap between your legs. apparently you'll get a glimpse of the OTHER WORLD. haha maybe when i'm drunk or high one day, i'll try it.
i'm feeling damn full now! it's bad to sleep with a full stomach right? heard you'll get nightmares. AHHHH SHITE. okok i mustnt be scared, shall think about speedo! HAHA! ok anyway until next time, ciao!
Friday, February 23, 2007, 6:51 AM
OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT. I GOT A BLOG! i want to say a big thank you to FELICIA. THANKS BABE! YOU ROCK AND I LOVE YOU! haha. ok so what do people usually blog about? how their day has been right? ok i shall blog about my day. here goes.
i went for my piano exam today, doing grade 8 this year. why oh why is it when i tell people i am doing grade eight, their eyeballs would like bulge out and they'll go "wa! grade 8! dont look like man." haha do i really look like i dont play the piano? hmmm maybe, cause girls who play the piano are usually sophisticated and very lady-like right? i'm the complete opposite. haha! i asked my friend "so which instrument do you think suits me?" and he said "THE DRUMS." oh boy. i seriously wonder why. i so cant imagine myself on the drums man. ok yes, back to my exam. it wasnt that great, cause i slipped quite a bit for the scales. as for my pieces, i was sooo nervous that i skipped a few bars. ahhh damn it. aural was the worst, i made mr howard laugh! i couldnt sing the lower part so i came up with my own melody. guess he wasnt fooled by it. wasted! i'll probably need to retake the exam again. MUMMY PLS DONT KILL ME.
after the exam, i went back to school for math tutorial. next monday is my ca! SHITE. I AM SO DEAD MAN. and mr lee kept making it worse by going "your ca is on monday, your ca is on monday, 2 days away, i want at least a B grade..." omg if i can pass, i'll be damn happy already. it's not that i'm those easily contented kind, it's just that i am really clueless now for math, esp gp! it's so stupid you know, i bought a 190 plus calculator and I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO USE IT. why? cause diane is too lazy to read the instructions booklet. anyway math tutorial was quite boring, the interesting stuff happened after school.
i was so happy when the bell rang. why? cause i may get to see SPEEDO. so i went down to the canteen with bev, and true enough, speedo is there! just the sight of him sitting there, laughing and chatting with his friends, makes my heart flutter. yes yes, very cheesy i know. but aiya, i cant control my stupid emotions man. i really really want to talk to him but i dont have the guts to do so. i sat down with my back facing him. haha i tried my best not to look, but the urge was just too strong. so i turned around and OMG! OUR EYES LOCKED. oh sweet jesus! i love it when that happens. but this blissful state only lasts for about 3 secs. pathetic right? cause i'll quickly turn away due to my stupid stupid shyness. i swear, one day i am going to force myself to not break eye contact and i shall flash him my best diva smile! LOL.
after eating, i went to the library to do some math with bev. the library was packed with j2s. all furiously mugging for their common tests. the poor things! anyway I CANT STAND THE STUPID LIBRARIAN. she is menopausal i swear. hope she gets fired! after studying for about an hour or so, we went to the grand stand. we played basketball for awhile then it started to rain. and i saw speedo on my way back. WHOOHOOOO. but he gave me this blur look. HAHA SO CUTE.
went to kap for dinner. i really miss kap. it felt great hanging there with fel and anna. brings back good old memories=) ok i am about to fall asleep now, shall blog again tmr! until next time, adios!
, 6:40 AM
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