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Monday, April 30, 2007, 3:42 AM
i was soooo caught up with being online yesterday that i forgot to blog about how demented felicia was. HAHAHAHA. met her yesterday to study at kap and serene centre. she's a demented fungi. LOL. she kept laughing at me for no reason then she blamed me for distracting her. HAHAHAHA YOU SUCK, FUNGI. LOL. hahahaha i got an embarrasssing video of her. anyone interested in seeing it, pls come and ask me and i will show it to you. hahaahaha!
hahaha anyway school was pretty fun today. had a short day, lessons ended at 1 for me. as usual, math lecture was freakin hilarious. mr ho is super comical. the way he scolds people is priceless. and he will call people stupid fool/idiot. HAHAAHAHHA. then he will go "sorry, you're not supposed to hear that." LOL WHAT A CUTE OLD MAN. oh yes, econs tutorial was HILARIOUS. we had this relieve teacher called mr. RAMOND TAN. HAHAHAHAHAHHA OMG HE IS DAMN FUNNY AND ODD. firstly, he looks and sounds funny. it's like his voice hasnt really cracked and all. HAHAHA I WAS BULLYING HIM LIKE SIAO. OMG I LOVE TO BULLY TEACHERS. HAHAHAHAHHA. he thinks that our class is crazy over spiderman so he kept cracking spiderman jokes. lol! i wished that he could relieve our class again for econs cause seriously, he's funny like shit. HAHA!
anyway chinese today was slightly more interesting cause lao shi let us listen to some F4 song on mothers. hahahaha i swear the guys in F4 sound like freakin gays. they even look gay. i mean, what kinda name is FLOWER 4 for a boy band? haha screwed up taiwanese. lit lecture was frustrating. fahy was going way fast. i'm a really fast writer cause i scribble, but even i couldnt keep up with his speed. wthhh i cant stand having half written notes. alot of people were grumbling but obviously, he told them off. saying smth that if we wanted him to go slowly, we should go to the "3 year junk" and not "catholic junior college". omggg what a jerk. an eccentric one at that, mind you.
we had class phototaking today at 2.30. so since i ended at 1, i went to the library with mich to study. hahaha on our way there, we met cheeko tan. omg the minute i saw him, i backtracked and went to sit by the piano and pretend to appreciate the song that some boy was playing. i figured since i sat down, cheeko tan wouldnt be able to catch me for my skirt length. hahaha omg he took forever to walk past us, that old sneaky cheekopek! anyway mich and i didnt get caught although i suspect that he was going to stop and check us. anyway the phototaking was quite funny. i stood in the middle row. yay! i really hope i didnt blink in the picture cause then that would be really sad! for the informal shots, we had one whereby we looked at a pao and opened our mouths wide. hahahahaha we are seriously a pao class. maybe our class mascot should be a pao. haha!
went to clementi central with fel and anna after school. we hung out at kfc and talked about school and "the fight". i really wish that it would end soon but i know it isnt easy. oh well, i hope we will find a way somehow. ahhh i just got a call from fel saying that she just saw him in town. ahhhhh i really wished i could have gone with them then i can bump into him too. nvm, i'm meeting him tmr so i mustnt be too greedy. haha! ok shall go shower now.
Saturday, April 28, 2007, 8:25 AM
i am officially pissed. i was blogging on my LAST paragraph when my com crashed. it was a long entry mind you, and now i have to blog ALL OVER AGAIN. DAMN YOU COMP, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO PMS SO MUCH LATELY? *SLAPS THE MONITER*
ok now back to what i was going to say. i went for piano lessons today. havnt been going for 2 weeks. as usual, got scolded for not putting in enough expressions. look, i am not cut out to play classical pieces so i really hate it that my parents force me to learn classical piano when i insist on switching to pop. i cant put in enough expressions and FEEL THE MUSIC IN MY BONES like say, abigail sin. i simply cannot. but anyhow, i still tried my best. i tried to move my body a little and like close my eyes, you know, imitating those professionals. and what do i get for such a splendid imitation? a slap on my hands and mrs lee going "STOP! AGAIN!" urghhhh. i got really pissed so when it came to the loud parts, I SERIOUSLY BANGED THE KEYS. i dont give a damn if i damage her piano. so i scared her and she was like "NOT SO LOUD!" and i said "it's ff what." and she was like "yes, but not SO LOUD. again!" ahhhh thank god, it's only an hour every week.
i went to meet fel at venetia after piano. it was great catching up with her. i havnt spoken to her in ages thanks to the stupid fight. i was afraid that it would be awkward between us at first but thank god, it was alright=) haha her class seriously has a few oddballs. i suppose in every class, there would be one. life would be oh so boring without one, wouldnt it? haha! speaking of oddballs, i just received a mail from bala, my penpal from india. he's kinda weird. he fears about me not remembering him and all, despite my repeated assurances that yes, i still remember you clearly. i remember that you are tall and lanky with a thick moustache. i think he's coming to visit singapore soon, i'm not sure if i wanna meet him if he asks. hahahaha i'm so mean.
ok my parents made me really annoyed and pissed about an hour ago. i've cooled down now. i was happily chatting online with my friends when suddenly my dad just marched up to me and started lecturing me about what a big jeopardy my life is currently. GEEZ OLD MAN, NEXT TIME GIVE ME A WARNING. anyway my friends were telling me smth impt and i was forced to just sign out. I WAS SERIOUSLY DAMN PISSED. my dad went "i think this has gone too far. you're addicted to the computer, i need to do something about this before it is too late. know your limits, diane. dont push your luck." so i went "okok, i am going to sign out in 5 mins." then he walked away and my mum came and SHOUTED at me "STILL DONT WANT TO TURN OFF THE COMPUTER? I COUNT THREE, ONE, TWO....." WTF. DOES SHE STILL TREAT ME LIKE I'M 7? WELL NEWS FLASH MUMMY, I'M 17 NOT 7! DONT GIVE ME THAT "COUNT TO THREE" BULLSHIT. urgh i hate it when they scold me for no reason at all. they just finished watching crossroads and had nothing to do, so they had to come annoy their daughter. i seriously wished i had a younger sibling. this would probably happen if i had one. "xxx, stop playing with barbie/cars! go clean your room! it's like a pigsty!" then the little one will pout and whine and go "how come jie can use the com! not fair not fair!" and my parents will go "jie's 17, she knows how to manage her time well. GO CLEAN YOUR ROOM NOW! I COUNT TO THREE, ONE, TWO...." yes, i can so picture that happening.
anyway my dad just came up to me and went "so late, still not sleeping?" ok that's also saying "turn off the computer now or you shall suffer the consequences." so i better end here.
Friday, April 27, 2007, 6:02 AM
school was reaaaally slack today. haha that's cause lessons dont start till after 11, thanks to the j2 awards ceremony. my dad dropped me off at the cj bus stop early in the morning and i met germaine. we took the bus to orchard to have breakfast at macs. on the bus, we received sooo many weird looks cause i bet people thought germaine and me were playing truancy. haha! anyway it's so weird walking around in orchard at 7 smth in the morning. the whole town seems dead. i saw quite a few old ang mohs jogging. if my 2.4km run was in orchard, i know that i will surely ace it cause there are so many motivations to keep me running! haha.
ting ting and vivien joined us for breakfast. we went to the macs at centrepoint. the aircon there really sucks, adding to that our uniform is super thick. ahhh so annoying. yeah we were bitching about a particular someone. i'm really quite disappointed in xxx. i would appreciate it if you showed some honesty and respect, that's the very least you should do given your position. anyway things are really tense now and i hope it would only get better. why oh why did you have to ruin it all of a sudden? werent you satisfied with the way everything was? were you just acting all along or being your true self? i guess i'm about to find out. anyway after breakfast, i went to meet him.
hahaha all the shops were still closed so we basically just wondered around taka. we browsed around kino and art friend. ahh i still havnt made use of the card that mich lent me. i think i should go to town tmr and make use of it! after getting tired of browsing around, we decided to eat cream puffs from beard papa. ooooh it was reaaaaally delicious!! haha but it's so embarrassing, i'm such a messy eater! i think i had cream and sugar all over my mouth and blouse. how unglam!! i felt so embarrassed=( went to coffee bean after that to get a drink. i shouldnt order whip cream with mocha next time. the whip cream makes me feel really full after taking only a couple of sips. in the end, he had to help me finish the rest. haha thank god guys have bigger appetites than girls. yes so i was having so much fun that i went back to school an hour later and completely missed history! I CANNOT BELIEVE I DID THAT. omg i feel really bad about it. ahhhh i need to read my timetable properly next time man.
after school, bev and i were supposed to go to toa payoh central for a drink. we took 151 instead of 153! OMG IT WENT ALL THE WAY TO MACPHERSON! cant believe we got lost! then we felt really helpless and the rain didnt make things any better. took us quite awhile to flag a cab. the minute i got inside the cab, i called felicia and had a long talk with her. i feel so much better after talking to her.
so yes, today was a happy day for me all in all. weeee i shall go online now to chat!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007, 7:39 AM
We belong together
Like the open seas and shores
Wedded by the planet force
We've all been spoken for
The hammer may strike, me dead on the ground
A nail to my hand, a cross on his crown
We're done if we're undone
Finished if we are incomplete
As one we are everything
We are everything we need
What good is a life, with no one to share
The light of the moon, the honor of a swear
We can try to live the way of which you speak
Taste the milk of your mother earth's love
Spread the word of consciousness you see
We are everything we need
All this indecision
All this independent strength
Still, we've got our hearts on save
We've got our hearts on save
Someday when you're lonely
Sometime after all this bliss
Somewhere lost in emptiness
I hope you find this gift...
I hope you find this gift...
I hope you find this gift.
i've found my gift. he's an angel sent to me from up above. thank you god, for answering my prayers. i'm too lazy to blog nowadays cause i spend too much time on msn. hahaaha. anyway hopefully i can blog properly tmr.
Saturday, April 21, 2007, 7:29 PM
So open up your morning light,
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive
And see the peace in every eye...
She had two babies, one was six months, one was three
In the war of '44...
Every telephone ring, every heartbeat stinging
When she thought it was God calling her
Oh, would her son grow to know his father?
I don't want to wait for our lives to be over,
I want to know right now what will it be
I don't want to wait for our lives to be over,
Will it be yes or will it be...sorry?
He showed up all wet on the rainy front step
Wearing shrapnel in his skin
And the war he saw lives inside him still,
It's so hard to be gentle at war
The years pass by and now he has granddaughters
So you look at me from across the room
You're wearing your anguish again
Believe me I know the feeling
It sucks you into the jaws of anger
So you look at me a little more deeply
All we have is this very moment
And I don't want to do what his father, and his father, and his father did
I wanna be here now
So open up your morning light,
And say a little prayer for I
You know that if we are to stay alive
And see the peace in every eye...
I don't want to wait for our lives to be over,
I want to know right now what will it be
I don't want to wait for our lives to be over,
Will it be yes or will it be...sorry?
Friday, April 20, 2007, 5:37 AM
i can't believe this is happening. it's too good to be true. i feel like i'm dreaming, but my friends tell me that i'm not. it's really like a fairytale come true. last night was one of the best nights of my life. thank you so much for telling me the truth! lol i was quite surprised by your confession, you know. i mean, you're such a shy guy and i honestly couldnt believe what you were telling me. my heart was really bursting with joy last night! thank you god, for answering my prayers. i was so happy that i couldnt sleep last night. i kept turning around on the bed and i was smiling to myself. HAHAHA. facing you again this morning was kinda awkward. i felt extremely shy but hopefully i acted normal, or so i hoped. haha!
i went to far east with anna to get rings for the lollies. lol anna saw you and shouted your name. i swear when she shouted your name, my heart started pounding really fast! and when i finally saw you, i just said the first thing that came to my mind, forgetting that i have already told you all those stuff in school. lol ahhhh i'm so screwed, i cant form proper thoughts when you're right in front of me! i hope you dont think that i'm an idiot, haha.
after far east, we went to mh's house to bake muffins! lol it was damn fun! i never realised how much i missed baking with the lollies. mh and mel are leaving tmr=( when i left, i couldnt help it, but i started crying the moment i hugged them. I'M GOING TO MISS THEM SO VERY VERY MUCH! MH AND MEL, COME BACK SOON OK! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! time flies, before i know it, july would come and they'll be back again! yay
omg i really hope you wont find my blog, cause it'll be sooo embarrassing to read what i blogged about you. ahh i hope you wont think that i'm a freak. anyway, this is a new beginning for us, i really hope we'll make it last=)
Thursday, April 19, 2007, 3:31 AM
today is a happy worst day. sounds weird yeah? i know. you see, the 2 people that matters alot to me is the cause of this. ok a friend that i treasure alot is very upset/disappointed/pissed with me. and i honestly feel like shite about it. i'm at a loss. i want to apologise to her and tell her how sorry i am for hurting her but i dont have the guts to do that. why? because i feel guilty as hell. i was in the wrong for breaking a promise. i'm sorry that i didnt make an effort to compromise or make firm decisions. i dont want our friendship to end because of this. surely our friendship is stronger than that? so the question now is, what am i going to do to make it up to her. i shall discuss with the rest. hopefully she will accept our apology cause honestly, we had no idea it would hurt her that much. well we obviously overlooked the matter. i am praying to God that he will guide us in this matter and help us. if she doesnt forgive me, i think i would never forgive myself because really, she means alot to me and i really am sincerely sorry for hurting her.
now on to some happy stuff. because i've been feeling at a loss over this matter, the only person that can actually cheer me up is dear sweet poko. he doesnt have to do anything for me, all he has to do is just smile at me and my spirits would soar. at a time like this when friendships are going through a storm, i really need a helping hand and a shoulder to cry on. i do not wish to tell poko about this matter although i completely trust him, that is cause i see no reason as to why i should burden him with my problems. omg what is wrong with me? i'm looking at the picture of poko and me together and by right, i should feel happy right? but my heart still feels really heavy and i honestly feel like crying.
i cannot stand this, i need to make things clear with her. shit my eyes are stinging. ahhhhh poko, where are you??? oh fuck, i need a kleenex.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007, 4:04 AM
i am trying very hard to resist the urge to blog about it. HAHAHAAHAAHHAH. anyway i seriously cant stop smiling. according to my classmates, i look different now. cause i have this radiant look, this constant smile on my face. HAHAHAHAHA. but really, i'm overwhelmed with joy. i shall not blog about it so i shall post a song! haha
Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me
Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you
i can only hope that things get better from this. it's a new beginning! whoohooo!
Tuesday, April 17, 2007, 4:09 AM
I AM A VERY VERY HAPPY PERSON TODAY. HAHAHAHAHHA. ok we shall begin from the morning. sd was quite boring. i was looking forward to religion class cause mr ho never fails to amuse me. haha but today it's ethics so chok came in and taught us about asean. hahaha louis, bronson and jonathan did this hilarious rap about thailand. saying that it's full of trannies and sex or smth. LOL DAMN FUNNY. alex's group did this fantastic poster on malaysia. it made boring old malaysia look nice. hmmm i really have smth against malaysia, maybe it's due to the toilet incident that happened years ago. anyway anna said malaysia is actually kinda nice if i know where to go. haha so we decided to maybe go on a roadtrip to malaysia someday, whoohoo!
after sd, we had lit. omggg we did a test. the poem was hard and i didnt really understand what was going on. jasmine tan said if you write less than 2 sides, you'll definitely fail. haha guess i just flunked it then. i was forcing myself to write but i simply just didnt know what to say. i mean, how much can you actually write about something that you dont understand? yeah, my point exactly. ok so we had pe after the lit test. i was feeling really crappy after the test. ahhh mrs tan made us run 2.7km today. me and a few of the girls from my class walked almost 90% of the time and our timing was 26 mins. LOL DONT WE RAWK? haha. after the run, we had to do three sets of jumps up the stairs. i almost died. i was so scared of falling backwards and getting a coma. after the jumps, i thought we could actually go but wth, we went to practise pull ups and sit ups. my pull ups is a gone case. did 8 in total when i was supposed to be doing 20. omg i hope my tester would be some lenient old person man.
huifang taught me how to say I LOVE YOU in jap today during pw. 私は愛する poko!!! hahahahaha. yeah anyway i think poko is the sweetest guy on earth, why do i say that? haha i cant exactly blog about it. but yes, he really makes my day=)
went to meet mel and mh at kap today. then we went back to mg. whoohooo it was great seeing all my teachers! i'm so happy that every single one of them said i look darker and this is the best part, LOST WEIGHT! HAHAHAHAHAHA. some didnt even recognise me. when i told them i'm in volleyball now, their eyeballs almost popped out. then they said "GOOD GOOD!" HAHAHA CUTE TEACHERS. i miss mg so much, it felt really good visiting a place which brought me so many memories. after mg, we went to vivo city to meet anna. haha we ate at carl's junior. omg the cleaner was hitting on mh cause he walked past her, smiled and bobbed his head! hahahahaha damn hilarious! after that, we went to some coffee place, i think it's called pacific coffee or smth, to hang out. ahhhh then i saw this ang moh couple making out in the middle of no where. HOW SWEET. mh said at that same time, another chinese couple was making out too. ooooh love is in the air! lol. oh yes, thanks mh and mel for the necklaces! I REALLY LOVE THEM! the hearts are so pretty=) i'll try to wear it to school tmr, hopefully michael cheeko tan wont catch me.
alrighty i should go do my work now. i cant wait for tmr, it's gonna be an exciting one. weeee!
Monday, April 16, 2007, 1:29 AM
I heard a whisper that touched deep inside my soul
Like some familiar melody
A hidden chapter from a story left untold
I gotta feeling,
I could believe in
There is an angel in my heart
Feels like I'm guided by a candle in the dark
Its taken all this time
To finally find out what I could never see
An angel in my heart
You were there 4 me
Now there is no doubt that there will always be
An angel in my heart
You were the friend,
You were the one I could confide in
You gave me strength that I could never find
Deep emotions that's I've always been denying
I believe in, its so close now, its You that
I'm feeling
Finally found what I been searching for(all my life)
It was right before my eyes
Oh u are my angelI know
You'll always be there
You are my one and only angel
To finally found find what I could never see
(You were there for me)
Now there is no doubt that there will always be
An angel in my heart
i think i'm coming down with a flu and poko's being so sweet to me=) i have a lit test tmr and i still have to complete my history outline and stupid pi. i cant stand pw, complete waste of time! anyway it was a short day for me today, school ended at 1. mich's mum dropped me off at orchard station. the train was so crowded! filled with smelly bhangras and poly students. the woman beside me kept dozing off on my shoulder. ah well, at least it was a woman so i really didnt mind. ok my history outline is screaming out for me to give it attention. ahhhh cant wait to go online later to talk to my lollies and poko!
Sunday, April 15, 2007, 1:18 AM
haha i'm really happy today! yesterday was one of the best days of my life. i woke up at about 10 plus yesterday morning. mh went for her dental appointment whereas fel was still caught up somewhere in lala land. so i went to use mh's laptop. i didnt know how to connect to the internet! haha so i just listened to music and played minesweeper. until now, i still suck at minesweeper. how sad!
anyway after mh came back from her dental, she made breakfast for us. what a doll! then we went to taka to eat at seoul garden. omg it was really weird that the place was packed with malays. i had no idea that malays like eating at seoul garden. anyway i could cook my own food! YAYNESS. i love cooking the beef! it takes such a short time to be cooked, how convenient! at first, the chicken was good but after eating too much of it, i got really sick of it. oh yes, the cooked food at seoul garden sucks to the core. oh and the seafood kimchi soup tasted so weird! anyway we had fun eating at seoul garden, haha.
after seoul garden, we went to meet brendan and his friend, deyong, for pool. ahhhh pool is so fun! although i still suck like shit at it, i had fun nonetheless. it's funny watching deyong use physics to teach my friends how to play pool. lol deyong and brendan are good teachers! thanks for treating us, brendan! it was really nice of you=)
we ended up cabbing back instead of taking the train cause it was so late already. haha oh and i cant wait to meet up with the lollies again next week! this time, hopefully we can have a baking session! whoohoo! i really miss baking with the lollies. anyway i'm really hooked onto this song that i heard playing in mh's car.
Mi amor I’m not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here’s the place to start
Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor
Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I’ll feel for all time
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how
I need you
With words you understand
Words that get through to your soul
Words that will let you know
You’re the one that
I need in my arms
Believe me these words
I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me
omgg poko, you have no idea how happy you make me feel! i cant wait to see you in school tmr! haha
Friday, April 13, 2007, 8:10 AM
oh man, it's been ages since i've blogged! hahaha so much has happened man. first of, things with poko are getting better by the day. whoohooo! haha i'm at mh's house now, the lollies are having a sleepover! mel's beside me, sleeping. mh and fel are showering. i am SUPER tempted to just switch off the lights. HAHAHAHA.
just came back from my godsis's birthday dinner. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE! YOU'RE FINALLY AN ADULT. HAHA. anyway hope you like my present! lol. although i have no real siblings, my god siblings sort of make up for it. they're always there for me, ready to give me advice and stuff. esp my godbro, haha thanks kor!
i really really want to go online now but i cant! the msn on mh's laptop is screwed. oh mannnnn. ok i shall blog abt arthur. geez arthur, you are really pissing me off. one day, i will seriously just snap and tell you off. dont you know that you dont have to pretend to be someone that you're not in order to make ppl love you? god, you seriously need a reality check. i try my best to be neutral around arthur, but sometimes, i think my dislike for him just shows. i'm sorry arthur, i feel quite bad so i'll try to get used to you.
it's half past 11 now and my brain's not working properly so i'm basically just blogging abt anything that comes to my mind. oh yes, i cant stand the stupid gc. i learnt how to sketch graphs today but i'm still really slow at it. i need practice! haha oh yes, i think our chinese teacher hates our class. i really feel quite bad abt it but i seriously cannot focus during chinese. she's just super boring and her voice is so scractchy. i dont think anyone listens to her and it's really very sad. i tried so hard to pay attention to her today but within 10 mins, my mind started to wonder. oh yes, i always have this insane urge to just laugh at mr farhy whenever he explodes. it's just so eccentric that it's funny. but of course, i control myself. haha.
i think i shall go play with the lollies now. weeeeeee i love the lollies! haha ok, bye!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007, 6:02 AM
Why can't every girl have their prince charming?It'd make all this dating shit a lot easier.Right from the start you'd know he was the one.No need for childish infatuations or dreams.Loneliness suppressed; happiness floods.Tears because a guy would never love you deceased.He'd be there; arms wide open,Letting you bury your face into his chest to cry away your pain.Listening to every muffled word that escapes your lips.Comforting you with his words and presence.Wiping away the tears with his thumb.Holding you close and never letting go,Even if his shirt is soaked in your tears.Until your sobs stop and you pull away.True affection and understanding.Although you have a perfect façade upon your face,Everyone else believes.Without saying a word he'd know something was wrong.Drawing you into a tender embrace.Ignoring your shouting, anger, and rough punches.Holding you against him till you calm.Willing to risk everything if your life was on the line.Does ridiculous things just to make you laugh and smile.Warmth from his hugs and kisses gently spread though your body.Laughing at his cuteness and how he acts so goofy.You'd love him so much his "imperfections" unnoticeable.Every minute away from him would feel like internity.Now isn't it too bad things can’t be like this?
Monday, April 9, 2007, 6:24 AM
I AM ABSOLUTELY DELIRIOUS! i usually hate mondays but today was different, in fact, it's the best monday ever! poko made my day in the morning, i shall not say why. hahahahahhaa. anyway i was practically smiling the whole day because of poko. he really never fails to bring a smile upon my face! the many times that we exchange hellos and smiles makes me want to just hop around and scream in delight. haha!
fahy came back today. he got even weirder. he's damn eccentric, for no reason whatsoever, he would just SHOUT. and i really mean, SHOUT. it's so bad that i almost wanted to pee. i'm really terrified of him and i sincerely hope that i am able to get used to his eccentricities. it's mrs koh's last day today. she's resigning as a teacher to be a financial advisor. omgg cant believe she only told us today. we were all damn sad! i mean, it really came as a shock. what's worse, i failed my econs test=( only a handful in my class passed. that's so depressing. good thing is that she gave us her number so hopefully i can still msg her whenever i have problems. haha.
chinese was damn slack today. we were supposed to have ting xie but she was abt half an hour late so the ting xie was postponed to wednesday. then we had to do an exercise from the workbook but none of us completed it. i was busy chatting with anna, tabby, bronson and jonathan that i totally neglected my chinese work. haha! after 2 excruciating hours of chinese, we had 2 hours of gp. it was such a pain i tell you. we had to write an essay and ms chok said it's actually a CA. wtf. i thought i would never be able to finish it in time but surprise surprise, i finished 15 mins earlier! it's not exactly a good sign cause i have a feeling i wrote crap for it. oh well.
i had such a pleasant surprise after school. my best friends mh and mel came back from aussie to visit us! AHHHHHH I LOVE YOU GIRLS! i was really happy to see them. mh put on some weight and mel looked the same, if not a little skinnier. we went to crystal jade for dinner. it's so fun exchanging stories with them. aussie sounds so fun! ohoh and krispy kreme doughnuts are the best! i really love the apple cinnamon one! haha. omgg after dinner we went to coffee bean and we ate more doughnuts. i am really feeling bloated now. i simply ate too much today! hope i didnt gain weight man.
cant wait to see them on wednesday/thursday again. weeeeee! haha i shall concentrate on talking to poko now. until then!
Sunday, April 8, 2007, 5:22 AM
i was doing my lit essay halfway and got tired, so i turned and stretched and my eyes landed on my bible lying on top of a pile of books. something in my heart tugged and i felt really guilty. when was the last time that i actually picked up the bible to read God's words? so i nervously picked up my dusty bible, and opened the book. believe it or not, a sense of peace and serenity washed over me as i started to read His words. i quickly flipped to my favorite verse and i suddenly felt so happy and warm after reading it.
love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails.(1 corinthians 12:4-8)ok now i shall blog about the usual stuff. i think bev has some sort of magical powers. everytime she says that it will be eye candy day, it really would be. and just last night, she wished me SWEET DREAMS before i went offline and indeed, i did have a sweet dream. haha! it also has to be that the very people that i was talking to online before i went to sleep were my favorite peeps in the world, fel, bev and.... POKO. hahahahahaha. ok anyway on to my dream.....this time, the setting is in seoul garden. *squeals* in my dream, i was eating with fel, anna, bev and mich. it's really cool cause most people in the restaurant were from cj/mg. haha! anyway i was still really scared of the oil splatting onto my skin so i sat really far away from the hot plate and fel was like "aiyo diane, the oil wont kill you la." and anna went "it's very fun, try cooking your beef!" then all my friends were encouraging me and all and i finally gave in and tried to cook my beef. then bev said "eh diane, i think you can sit back and relax, cause he's coming soon and he'll cook for you!" all my friends started laughing after that. then mich pointed at this table at the end that was set for two and she asked me to go and sit there. after that, anna blindfolded me and led me towards that table. the minute i sat down, i wanted to remove my blindfold but anna said "nooo cannot! be patient diane." and i asked "what's going on here??? i cant see!" and i could hear all my friends laughing at me. anna said that if i removed my blindfold now, i will really regret it so i listened to her. soon i heard people whistling and i heard my friends' very distinct laughters/giggles. "hello diane." a very familiar voice said. i lifted my hands to remove my blindfold but his hands stopped me and he said "let me do it." as soon as the blindfold was removed, i found myself staring at the cutest face in the world. omgggg it was poko! ahhhhhhhhh. and he was smiling down at me and omg, he looked so damn FINE in his black shirt and berms and spiked hair! AHHHHHH. then he sat across me and started cooking all the raw meat. HE IS SO CUTE! i think i just sat there and smiled dreamily at him cause he looked at me and went "try cooking it, it's fun!" and i went OKOK! i just threw the beef into the hot plate and the oil splatted on my wrists. "OUCH!" i said and my dear poko immediately dashed to my side and held my wrist and asked if i was ok. OMG HE IS SO SWEET! at that point, i heard bev say "hey guys, look here and SMILE!" as we turned to look at her, she snapped a picture of us and started to laugh. then poko went "hey! take another one, we were not ready." and i was like "huh?" then bev went SURE! then poko put his arms around my shoulders and started to smile and i just stared at him. then he laughed and asked me to look at the camera and smile. omggg i swear it felt like i was in heaven! and this part is really weird, cause suddenly the place turned into a dance floor. it was very retro. i saw jiggly jiggling away on the dance floor and he kept laughing. mich was rolling on the floor with laughter. oh then jiggly pulled her up and they started to dance. mich was laughing the whole time. fel, you're gonna love this. I SAW YOU AND COLGATE DANCING AWAY IN THE CORNER OF THE ROOM. it's kinda weird as the music was fast but you guys were dancing the slow couples dance. hahaahahha both tone deaf. LOL. actually anna's tone deaf too, cause she was doing the ballroom dance with some tall and skinny guy, i cant really see who it was. poko and i just stood there staring at everyone dance. then he looked at me and asked me shyly if i wanted to dance and i said SURE! haha very eager i know. he was doing some weird moves on the dance floor and it looked like he had spasms but ahhh he looked so cute! so i tried to copy his moves. in the end, we both got thrown out due to i cant remember what. so we just sat down outside the door and started laughing. the dream ended with me leaning on his shoulders and him telling me something, cant remb what. urghhhhh. ANYWAY I REALLY LOVE MY DREAM. cause my best friends were in it, AND poko too! haha. ok going online to talk to him now. weeeee
Friday, April 6, 2007, 7:51 PM
You always ask who he is,
This boy who turns my mind to fizz,
Well, Though I wish it was not true,
This boy, this boy is you.
Sweet, Silly you.
Quiet in a good way, you.
Can always make me laugh, you.
Not-so-innocent but not a pervert, you.
Smarter than god, but hates bragging, you.
I love YOU,
Though it's something I wish I didn't do.
You're the dream guy and my close friend,
Sometimes I wish I could be your girlfriend.
Forgive me for what is true,
Forgive me for loving Forbidden You.
Thursday, April 5, 2007, 6:57 PM
shall blog about what happened yesterday. school was pretty much boring except for the religion class and lit tutorial. we had some special service for religion class. it was pretty nice. i liked the part whereby we had to wash our classmate's feet. it's so funny seeing mr ho correcting ppl on how to wash feet. lol. oh yes, fahy still isnt back from ireland, so james tan came in. omgg james tan is such a horny bitch! he cracked so many sick jokes. hahaha not that i'm complaining but still, it's kinda weird. we played basketball for pe yesterday. mrs tan taught us the chest pass as well as defense. i really love basketball! i feel so sporty and cool when i play it. hahahahahahaa. speaking of basketball, i really miss playing it with my beloved t11 as well as with fel and anna.
ok so after school, a few of us went to nana thai for a late lunch. i ordered beef kway teow but i had NO IDEA that it would be THAT spicy. i only managed to survive 5 bites before begging germy to exchange her pineapple rice with mine. haha. the guys didnt eat with us as they accompanied louis to go cut hair, but they did come back later to join us. anyway speaking of louis, did you all know that he can actually DRIVE?? yes! he's got a license! omggg how cool is that?! hopefully one day he would drive us all around singapore. haha!
we played truth and dare after our meals. THAT WAS DA BEST PART! i found out quite a few of my friends' secrets, muahahahahah! oh yes, the dares were funny. joy taught us the art of seducing a guy. first, you gotta twirl your hair. next, bat your eyes. and finally, lick your lips. you have to combine all 3 together to make it a success! so bimbo tried to seduce sam tan but it's so weird, he was looking everywhere else but her. hahahahahaa. then for her dare, vivien also had to seduce sam tan but haha, it didnt work too. oh yes, anna's dare amazed everyone. she had to go to the window, and do her usual hair thang. so she went there, and did her sexy hair flinging thing. everyone was like WOW! oh and jonathan said "that turned me on." HAHAHAHAAHHAA. anna you must teach me how to fling your hair! maybe i'll try it on poko. HAHA! when it came to my turn, i chose truth. but they asked me who i liked and no matter what, i couldnt say poko's name, it's just too risky. so i had to do a forfeit. my forfeit was nasty. i had to take a sip of this EVIL CONCOCTION that my friends made. i couldnt remember what they added, but let me tell you, IT TASTED LIKE SHIT. then bimbo commented "IF ONLY POKO KNEW YOU WERE DOING ALL THIS FOR HIM!" yes, if only he knew. the guys' had a funny dare. they had to kiss each other on the cheeks. bronson gave sam tan a REALLY NICE SMOOCH. i so wanted to video it but he didnt allow=( sam tan had to give louis a kiss too,but that one wasnt as nice as bronson's one. hahahahaaha
i have just realised that i totally suck at flirting. last night when i was talking to poko online, i tried to flirt but it failed miserably! i'm such a failure! haha but anyway that's ok, cause we talked for about an hour plus and that made me really happy=) i wonder what he's doing today, i really really want to go to island creamery with him but i dont have the guts to ask. haha! ah well, i guess i can only fantasize about it. anyway i need to go get ready now, going to meet fel to study! whoohoo cant wait! ok later!
Wednesday, April 4, 2007, 3:27 AM
whoohoo no volleyball today! i ended school at 2. ok let me start from the beginning. i really looked forward to today cause there's econs lecture. I SIMPLY LOVE ECONS LECTURES, VERY VERY MUCHHH=) i wished that econs lectures would be longer and not just an hour. oh my, poko just came online!! okok must resist the urge to appear online. oh yes, i think morning assemblies are funny. my class is standing beside this dorky class, most of the guys in that class look serious and uh smart. i almost laughed during the national anthem today cause the guy beside me was singing really loudly. he also said the pledge loudly too. HAHA. i shall be a loyal citizen and say the pledge loudly tmr morning! i think poko says the pledge every morning too. LOL.
anyway it was ms chok's 27th birtday today. delphne went to buy her a mango cake, how sweet! so we sang her 2 birthday songs and ate the cake. maybe it's just me, but i felt that she didnt really appreciate it. i mean, her facial expression didnt exactly look like she was greatful or touched. but then again, you know how some people just have faces that no matter what, forever looks pissed/annoyed/constipated? lol
i had a really bad recess today. why? BECAUSE MICHAEL TAN FUCKED IT UP. i was happily walking with anna and mich to the canteen when he called me. "young lady, you shall attend grooming lessons on friday from 3 to 7 since you do not know how to dress properly. now give me ur ez link card." he demanded. WTF. i was speechless. just because i tucked out my blouse, i deserved to be sent to detention? let me tell you, at that moment, i was fucking pissed. i started cursing like hell and my face was all red. bronson and jonathan agreed to accompany me to see michael tan after recess, just in case he tried to do smth funny. anyway i couldnt find him in the end so i went straight to tan jek suan and complained to him. tan jek suan was really nice about it, and said i should see that fucker after school again to negotiate. ok fair enough. so i went after school, i had already cooled down by then. i really didnt want to do detention, so i decided to try my luck at flirting with him. HAHAHAHA IT WORKED. "mr tan! can i have my ez link card back?" i asked SWEETLY. "why do i have your ez link card?" he asked. ha! as if he didnt know, bloody wanker. "OMG! HOW CAN YOU FORGET! I'M DIANE! dont you remember??? hahahaha!" i was like going to puke any minute but i persevered and continued to smile sweetly. "of course i remember you, diane. wait here for me." and he went inside to take my ez link card. then he lectured me for abit and gave me back my card. I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT. according to my friends, if he took your ez link card, he would only give it back to you at 5pm. so i felt reallylucky to have gotten it back at 2.15. hahahahaha it must be the flirting. omg michael tan is seriously fucked up.
so after school, i went to holland village to meet fel. it was raining heavily and i missed the stop! so i had to cross the overhead bridge and retake another bus back. as i was walking down the steps, i felt like i would slip and fall any minute since the steps were slippery. REALLY SCARY I TELL YOU. we ate at delifrance. it's such a cosy place! good place for studying. haha. anyway it fet really good catching up with fel. i really miss talking to her on a daily basis. the waiter reminded me of perv j. GROSS MAN. fel's so lucky to be in bball cca, but she said she might switch to swimming. HAHA NAUGHTY GIRL.
quite a number of people have been asking me if i thought about telling poko how i feel towards him. this is how i predict it to be.
me: hello!
poko:hello.
me: uh i have something to tell you.
poko:yes?
me: shit i think i like you.
poko: what??
me: omg sorry! i didnt mean to! i mean, i dont know why but it's like i cant control my feelings! shit sorry! omg are you freaked out?
poko: uh.....
me: ok nvm, sorry, i shouldnt have said that. i'll see you later, bye!
and i end up dashing off, never able to face him again. OR hopefully smth like that would happen
me:hey, i have something to tell you. but i'm not sure if i should, cause you might feel weird after that.
poko: huh? what is it?
me: uh aiya nvm la, forget it.
poko: what is it? just tell laaa
me:um um ithinkilikeyou
poko: what what?
me:I THINK I LIKE YOU! *covers face*
then there is a moment of silence, and then he takes my hands away from my face, but i continue looking down cause i feel like i'm about to die.
poko: diane
me: omg i shouldnt have said that! shit shit shit *i mumble as my head is still faced down, he is still holding both my hands btw*
poko: diane, look at me.
me: no!
poko: oi look at me. (and i glance up, starring into his beautiful eyes) i like you too. i feel the same way about you.
i am utterly speechless as my jaw drops open. then poko laughs and hugs me tightly. and then we both start laughing like mad fools as we dance around.
HAHAHAHAHA i told you i have an over active mind. anyway, a girl can always dream, right? lol
Tuesday, April 3, 2007, 3:50 AM
i'm feeling REALLY tired today. maybe it's because i hardly saw poko today=( anyway i feel like such a loser, stayed up late till about 12 last night to complete the damn pi and guess what? ms chok decided to extend the deadline to friday. urghhhhhh. so in class today, i was really sleepy and all. during religion class, i slept like a dead log. according to my friends, even when they shook me, i didnt budge. oh boy.
i feel so nervous and tense during lit tutorials. thank god it was jasmine tan today. if it were fahy, i would be minced meat. cause i was really yawning and all during class and my eyes were straining hard to stay open. jasmine tan goes really fast. she talks like a machine gun. i was praying hard in my head, "pls god, dont let her call me. pls pls pls dont call me." god answered my prayers! she looked at me a few times and i was damn sure she was going to call my name to answer her questions, but she didnt. haha! and she loves using bombastic words. here i am, rushing like mad to take down whatever that's coming out of her mouth. it would be so much easier if i didnt have to pause and think of how to spell the bombastic word that she just said. oh wells, i guess i'll get used to her eventually, the sooner the better!
after lit, i had the dreaded pe. after i changed, i was just sitting outside my class. i felt this insane urge to just cry. i really needed my sleep, and now i had to go attend physical training. my brain couldnt even think of a good enough reason to lie to mrs tan so i just went through the torturous pe lesson. we had to run 2 rounds, and 1 grand stand. that's considered 1 set. we did 3 sets in total. i think i mentioned this before but i really feel very self conscious when i run. i keep thinking that everyone (esp the guys) are looking and laughing at my ugly fat legs as i run. i wished i could just wear track pants to run, that would make me feel so much better but i'll probably just melt in them, what with the scorching sun and all. after completing the 3 sets, we had to practise our pull ups. girls had to do 20 incline pull ups. i hate pull ups! seriously, my arms are the weakest arms ever! they're so useless. i watch the girls, doing continuously the 10 pull ups. it's like so damn easy for them. as for me, i struggled like mad. i ended up doing 6 only. HAHAHAAHHA yes i suck. i need 7 to get a silver. hopefully i'll be able to formulate a way to cheat. haha! last year, i managed to cheat for my sit-and-reach. hahahaha. i used to be able to do 20 pull ups but that was in primary school. what has puberty done to me??? oh god. oh yes, then we did the chest jump thingy. i had the oddest feeling ever when i did the jumps! this probably sounds damn weird but when i jumped, i THOUGHT i felt my uh reproductive system moving. I KNOW YOU MUST THINK I AM NUTS BUT IT SERIOUSLY FELT LIKE THAT, I SWEAR. it felt like something inside my lower abdomen was moving. and what else is there besides my reproductive system?? yes there you go. and you know i keep thinking that the more i work out and tire myself, the less fertile i will be. i'm damn scared! i know this is all bullshit but urgh, i cant stop my over active mind from running wild sometimes.
had econs test today. I AM GOING TO FAIL IT. i felt like giving up halfway through the test, my brains just wasnt functioning properly. halfway through the test, i looked up at the ceiling and sighed. then i looked at my love declaration for poko on the table and i felt inspired to write more. HAHAHAHAHHA. i wonder if he has done his test yet. i'm sure he would ace it cause he is so very smart! haha. i think if he asked me how the test went, i wouldnt mind telling him everything that came out. but that will never happen cause he wouldnt ask me in the first place.he has integrity! haha. if he actually bothered to look hard enough, he would definitely realise that i like him. i'm always grinning like an idiot when i talk to him, and my cheeks get a little flushed. after our (very short) conversations, there would be a bounce in my step and i will actually giggle. yes, i need to control myself i know. haha!
after school, i hung out with bimbo in the library. tried to do history but it was an utter failure. then bev and anna came to meet us and we headed to the grand stand to chill for awhile. ok my fingers are getting tired now, shall go shower first then continue with history! go diane, you can do it!
Sunday, April 1, 2007, 3:46 AM
ok quite a bit of stuff happened today. i almost got robbed in the morning. it was quite a scary experience. we just came back from breakfast and i walked ahead of my mom to the lift. as i was waiting for the lift, 2 teenage malay guys walked past me. then they paused and were eyeing my hp. i got scared so i quickly dashed inside the lift and pressed "close". i could see one of them advancing towards me but then the other one ran away. i was panicking like shit but thank god the doors closed in time. then my mom told me that when she got there, they quickly ran away. OMG WHAT A SCARY ENCOUNTER.
for lunch, we went to clementi central since i had to fix my glasses. i'm quite sick of wearing them since i get uneven tan lines on my face. pffft. so i asked my dad "daddy, can i get contacts?" *grins hopefully* he looked at me seriously and said "no." and i went "why not?! pls pls pls! i'm so sick of wearing glasses!" then he said "you take over one hour plus to get ready every morning. and you do things so slowly. AND there are high chances of you getting eye infections! when the contact lense gets fused to your eyeballs, then you need to go for surgery. now do you still want it?"
of course i do!! I screamed in my head but i just mumbled a "no". when oh when will i finally get my contacts?? i want brown contacts, so i can have nice brown eyes like poko=) ok anyway, i went to fix my glasses on my own whereas my parents went to eat. on my way there, i had this funny encounter with this guy. ok this guy looks freakin hot! he has like short spiked hair, BROWN EYES(omggg) and a very boyish face. oh and he has a hot body too. haha! ok anyway, we were in each other's way. so i moved left, and he moved left! then i stepped right, and he did the same! so this went on for about 3 more times, then he finally huffed and put his nice strong arms on my shoulder and moved me gently to the side. OMG! i just stood there like an idiot for a few minutes. seriously, he looks like some surfer. HOT!! sorry poko, but this guy really is hot. you're still my number one though! haha
so after that, we proceeded to IMM. i wanted to buy the movie "O!". it's like othello, the lit text that i'm doing. my mum went to look for clothes while my dad and i walked around in best denki. i tried to persuade my dad to get me a laptop but it didnt work=( so i dragged him over to the cookers section. i tried to get him to buy me an oven so that i can bake since the one we have is REALLY old.so i was like sprouting out nonsense, opening and closing the oven, trying to act like some know it all. i think he walked away when i was talking halfway. cause i said "i want an oven to bake! BAKING IS MY LIFE!" then i turned around, expecting to see my dad there but this old man just stood there, grinning at me. OMG BLOODY CHEE KO PEK! and he said "baking is gooooood", exposing his gold teeth. WTF I ALMOST GAGGED. so i quickly went to search for my dad. when i found him, i smacked him hard on his back for leaving me behind. then this china couple turned and looked at me with disapproving eyes. urgh whatever man.
we ate at cafe cartel for dinner. omg there was this cheapskate couple (indian guy, chinese girl) behind our table. at cafe cartel, there is a free flow of bread. so when my mom went to take some bread for my dad. she met the indian guy there. he took almost the whole freaking loaf. my mom was super pissed as she had to wait for the next round of bread. when the bread was replenished, the indian man went again but this time, my mom got there first and managed to cut a few slices. not surprisingly, he took the rest. i turned around and felt disgusted. they are so bloody cheapskate. they just ordered a small plate of wedges and ate bread, since the bread was free. WTHHH. if they're gonna do that, they shouldnt even eat at cafe cartel since they are hogging up the table. THE CHINESE GIRL IS BLIND I TELL YOU. i have no idea why she is dating this indian guy, who is a bloody cheapskate and who looks like sewage. she looked so smitten with him. i have this nasty feeling he hypnotised her or smth. god bless her soul. on my way out, i said quite loudly "some ppl are just simply too CHEAPSKATE." the indian man turned and looked at me and i rolled my eyes at him. hahahahaha yes, i can be a real bitch when i want to.
anyway we stopped at shell on our way back to pump petrol. my parents went inside to buy some stuff. so i was just sitting alone in the car, eating blueberry ice cream. then this really young guy came and wiped the window. he's the kind that has a normal face but his hair makes him look way cooler and cuter. i tried not to look at him as he wiped the windows cause i didnt want to be unfaithful to poko. i sure got a huge surprise when he came and knocked on my window, indicating for me to wind it down. my parents would kill me if they caught me talking to some random guy. so i quickly snuck a glance at my parents, they were still walking around in the shop so i winded down the window. the guy grinned cheekily, licked his lips and said "i'm really hungry. can i have some of that?" and he looked at my ice cream. OMG. this has never happened to me before i swear. i've never met some stranger who openly flirted with me. so i gulped and said "no you cant." and he went "awww come on." and i furiously shook my head, but i was smiling a little. haha! then he went "fine fine. what's your name? my name is xxx btw." i almost choked on my ice cream, i simply could not believe that he had the same name as poko! at that moment, my mom came and i expected her to scold me or smth but she went "wow you're really young to be working here. how old are you?" and he laughed and said he was 17 and went on saying that his dad punished him for being rebellious that's why he had to work at shell. then my mom went "diane is 17 too. maybe i should make her work here when she gets naughty too!" then my parents went inside the car. i still could not believe that happened. anyway when the car drove away, i turned and looked at xxx and he gave a friendly wave. OMG. i was too stunned by what happened that i didnt finish my blueberry ice cream in the end.
i guess there is a first time for everything. the next time a stranger flirts with me, i will act cool about it and not like some idiot. ahhhh poko, i wished you were there with me! i am not looking forward to school tmr, parents-teachers meeting. YIKES-A-BEE!