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Saturday, December 29, 2007, 3:23 AM
its been a great day today! weeee. met up with mh and anna at bugis. haha mh looks great! she's twiggy no more, in place is a pretty and healthy looking girl! haha anna had vouchers at hip diner, this place under the same management as billy bombers. there was this super pretty waitress working there! one of the rare few that stands out even in short hair. we shared sausages, beef stew and waffle. food wasnt that bad but it wasnt spectacular. total bill amounted to 40 plus. when we presented the voucher, to our dismay, the voucher isnt valid on weekends! haha poor anna felt really bad abt it. its ok babycakes, not to worry!
oooh i brought them to intercontinental hotel to use the toilet. stupid anna called me a "piss hole". haha she kept saying that her bladder was gonna burst, when we reached the toilet, i wanted to let her use first but she didnt want to. weirdddd. HAHA. the toilet there is really cramp. hyatt's one is still better. haha!
after that we made our way to bugis street. omg its like a madhouse there. super crowded. so many shops too! i bought pumps and a cardigan. felt like buying those cute tshirts with funny words on it but decided not to, in case mummy scolded me for buying too much. haha! ooh mh got this really cute smurf and elmo shirt! i'm sure it'll look great on her! alot of the shops there sell similar stuff. ohoh and most of the shopkeepers there are like super young lians who wear thick makeup. abit disturbing. haha
after that i had dinner with my parents at singapore poly. the waitresses there are hot. HAHA. i still think that there are more goodlooking girls than guys in singapore. how sad la! lucky for the guys but sad case for us girls man.
ok shall go play poker now. later!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007, 7:48 AM
i'm so tired. havnt been going for training lately cause of my stupid rashes. haha i think my muscles have turned into fats. oh man! i'm quite worried abt my rashes. its been like one week plus already and still, no improvement! on certain days, esp nights, it gets redder and worse. omg did i catch some skin disease? I REALLY HOPE NOT. ahhh damn scary!
anyway christmas yesterday was great=) i went to visit my grandma. its been 7 years already and i really miss her. wished she was still here with us. after visiting her, i went to town to meet poko. we went to raffles city shopping centre. omg i love the basement best. SO MUCH GOOD FOOD. had the warm choc cake from beard papa, it was WICKED. lol chocolate really makes me feel "gooey" inside. does that even make sense? haha! after binging, we went to clementi station to meet my ex class.
josh organised a christmas bbq at his place. it was great seeing weiming and bernice again=) haha the fire took ages to warm up. i like bbqing! it's one of the rare few ways that i know how to cook the food properly. haha although the fire's really hot and my whole body stinks after that, i dont really mind cause i like the feeling of cooking the meat properly and having ppl say "mmmm thanks!". i feel so accomplished! haha
why am i experiencing bone aches now? omg i hope it isnt the rashes. shall go watch gossip girl to take my mind off it! cant wait for tmr, gonna ride the cable car!! weee.
Friday, December 21, 2007, 5:33 AM
i went for my dental checkup today. i've never liked visiting the dentist, smth bad would always happen. i was dreading my checkup today and true enough, smth bad did happen. my dentist went on a honeymoon so this new guy took over. he was super friendly. first thing he said to me was "sooo diane, you're from mg? i'm an ac guy." and i was like "ac guys are annoying." haha! then he made me lie down on the chair and asked if i requested any music. so i requested for oasis. it helped calm me down a little.
first he did the usual check for decay, when none was to be found, usually he would proceed with polishing but this jerk was like "hmmm i can see your wisdom tooth. you need an xray." i was like wtf?! i mean, i didnt feel any pain or whatsoever so why the hell would i need an xray?? i bet he just wants to earn extra money. so i had my FIRST xray, it was pretty alright. when the picture developed, he told me that all 4 of my wisdom tooth would give me problems. WTH LA. but the bottom ones were more serious cause it was going to collide with my other teeth or smth like that. so that jerk said "in 6 months time, you would start to experience discomfort." i was quite pissed with him. i mean, for nothing you have to tell me this sorta news and make me nervous. stupid jerk. when i was fidgeting on the chair, he called me a scaredy-cat and was like "dont worry, i'm very gentle." omg i almost gagged la!
after that horrid dental appointment, i went to meet hf and ting ting in town. as usual, being with them makes me laugh alot and soon i forgot abt the disgusting dentist. it was so crowded and sunny today! almost every shop in town was packed with ppl! haha we walked from town to ps and ting ting was telling me what happened to her last week. all i can say is: ting ting, leave it all up to fate. uh huh.
we had dinner at long johns. omg poor hf, her combo 1 took ages to come! haha but being the nice nun that she was, she never lost her temper. i hate it when the people say they'll deliver our orders but in the end, we have to end up collecting it ourselves cause they forget abt it. super annoying man. hf and i excitedly tried taking pictures with our new phones. we feel abit cheated cause the camera doesnt seem like its really 3.2mg. i dunno, some of the pics were kinda grainy.
went to istana park to camwhore after dinner. omg there was a party at Giraffe!! that restaurant seems super nice, i shall go try it some day! i dont like my camera. taking pics at night produces really bad quality pictures. maybe there's a way i can enhance the quality. hmmm. anyway we went back to ps after that and watched this choir from malaysia sing and dance! it was pretty cool! haha
k shall go apply lotion now, rashes still not down yet. grrrr.
Monday, December 17, 2007, 10:18 PM
i am very very unlucky. my knee injury healed but i got rashes and a pimple on my eye. WTH RIGHT? the pimple on the eye thing, i think its cause of that movie Good Luck Chuck. i watched it, thinking it would be a nice romantice comedy. well yes, it was kinda nice but it was ruined by the multiple sex scenes that chuck had with other woman. omg i dont know if those were counted as porn, if they were, then omg i watched my first porn! SICKKK. its so gross la, there were multiple captions of him doing it in different positions with different woman. must be that movie that contaminated my eyes. now i got a pimple on my left eye! urghh
i also have no idea how i got the rashes. tiny red spots all over my body. it isnt as bad as hives but still, its difficult to look at it. and it's so itchy! omg i heard the mouline rouge song on the radio just now, and it made my rashes itch more! haha weird i know.
got an mc for volleyball training. still deciding whether or not i should go tmr. hope my rashes subside soon! k shall go read my suicide novel now. later!
Thursday, December 13, 2007, 5:33 AM
weeee i feel so happy today! despite the terrible muscle aches and all, i still feel great! went to town today to meet mel. haha it feels GREAT seeing her again! she's still as funny as ever=)
we went to food republic and had hokkien mee. haha i bet she missed it alot when she's in melbourne. omg the queue was still as long as ever, but thankfully the uncle was really fast at cooking. hmm frying hokkien mee over the huge wok seems fun! all he does is throw in the ingredients and stir. haha. the hokkien mee is wasted on me, cause i only eat the noodles but i dont eat the prawns. haha i dont know how to peel prawns with the spoon and chopsticks. use my hands la! you might say. but you know what? i dont like getting my hands dirty. HAHA.
after that we went to starbucks and had mocha frap and chatted for hours. she updated me on her life in melbourne. omg there are so many weird ppl there! haha i certainly dont meet those sort of ppl here in cj. when we were camwhoring halfway, this bulky ang moh guy was like "would you like me to help you take a picture?" OMG I TOTALLY FREAKED. i mean, i get nervous when i interact with ang mohs, i always think they have a problem understanding my singlish. haha! mel and i were supposed to do a random face shot but i was so nervous that i ended up smiling. HAHA. sorry mel! didnt mean to pang seh you. lol
met ting ting and jon for dinner. we went to pepper lunch. hmm, seems like nowadays pepper lunch is kinda empty. maybe ppl are getting sick of it. not me though! i looove the beef pepper rice! haha. jon and i were telling ting ting about the american pie series. i love american pie! yeah yeah, its a sick show but its also extremely hilarious! haha ting ting, must go watch!
we shared a cup of venetia ice cream for dessert. the three of us sat on a bench, jon in the middle holding the cup. omg we got so many looks from ppl la! i dunno what was on their mind, did they think that jon was pimping us or smth? HAHA. quite a number of girls/ladies looked at jon. haha oooh, my son's a ladies killer! lol i'm a proud mummy man.
ok shall go and watch lovewrecked again. I LOVE JONATHAN BENNETT! haha goodbye wentworth miller, there's a new man in my life now!
Sunday, December 9, 2007, 11:49 PM
there are so many other wonderful things that eyes could see if they really focused. life's kind of like a painting. a really bizarre abstract painting. you could look at it and think that all it is is a blur. and you can continute living your life thinking that all it is is a blur. but if you really look at it, really see it, focus on it and use your imagination, life can become so much more. that painting could be of the sea, the sky, people, buildings, a butterfly on a flower or anything except the blur you were once convinced it was.
, 5:40 AM
I HATE LIZARDS, I REALLY HATE THEM! highlight of my day would be the shit lizard that my mum has been trying to catch for days. alright so i was watching haunted mansion, and when the commericials came on. i decided to go to the bathroom. on my way there, i looked up and holy shit, there was the ugliest creature on earth!
the minute i saw it, i started screaming. "AHHHHHHHH! DADDYYYY! MUMMYYYYY! THERE'S A LIZARD ON THE WALL AND ITS HUGE! OMG OMG, SICK! AHHHHHH!" and my parents came running out. my dad was like "i'll shoot it down." so he went to get a rubberband and paper. sadly my dad is no robin hood. he missed his first aim and the shit lizard was still there.
so my mum was like "spray it! i'll go get baygone!" so she excitedly went to get the baygone and she courageously took a chair, stood on it and sprayed at it! the first time, the lizard wriggled abit and i screamed. IT'S SERIOUSLY DISGUSTING. so my mum sprayed a second time and the lizard fell to the ground and made its way to the kitchen! my mum and i screamed as she chased it there. then she started smacking the lizard with folded newspaper. after 3 hard smacks, it died. OMG BUT THE TAIL CAME OUT AND STARTED TO JUMP ABOUT. ahhhhh damn gross!
my dad quickly took a plastic bag, scooped it up and got rid of it. YUCK YUCK YUCK. here's a picture of the shit lizard, thats lying dead now in the rubbish chute. MUAHAHAHA.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007, 7:37 PM
it never seems to end. really, all i see is just more problems coming my way. why is it always like that? i do something and instead of making it better, i've only made things worse. i think i know why. its cause i'm too dumb to think of the consequences. if i think that doing this would make it better, i just go ahead and do it, without thinking otherwise if it may have reverse effects. that just makes me a rash idiot doesnt it?
i know that they care about me. cause they keep trying to find ways to let me know. and when people feel angry, hurt, sad and disappointed, their words tend to be harsher. right now, i'm calm about it. staying calm is the only way for me to process what they say and react to it. cause when i'm extremely angry or sad, i cant think properly. and i'll just accept everything. which i've realised isnt right, cause its important to be honest. without honesty, nothing can be solved.
everyone changes, you all know that. but i feel that no matter how much you change, there is still a you inside there somewhere. i thought they failed to see that, and i was really puzzled and frustrated. i mean, they are my friends, why cant they see that i'm still me on the inside, despite how i changed on the outside? she said she sees it, thats why she keeps trying. okay i'm glad she does, but on that night, it really didnt seem that way.
i am not going to defend myself on this blog, cause it may once again have the reverse effect from what i want. i feel that what we all need now is a discussion, definitely not an argument. being angry wont solve anything. so pls guys, lets not get angry with one another ok?
, 5:34 AM
So many memories we've made together
As the years have slowly passed.
Tears may have been cried
But our laughter drowned them all out.
Sharing my deepest-most secrets with you
Talking forever about things
Until our words just ran out.
I cant tell you the answers
To the questions you have.
But I want you to know
I will always love you as my friend.
And when your heart is troubled,
I want you to think of me.
Remember the times of joy
We have shared
And maybe it will make you smile.
Take the memories we have made
And cherish them
As I always will.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007, 7:03 PM
he left for america this morning. when i read the sms that he sent me before he left,i felt so sad=( he's going to be gone for 11 days and i'm already missing him alot. i usually never sleep past 12 but last night, i slept at 2am. i couldnt bear to leave him despite how sleepy i was. he tried cheering me up by entertaining me on his webcam but that only made me even more sad. it's raining heavily now, that only serves to heighten up my emo-ness this morning.
i'm supposed to be going out later but i really dont feel like it. i feel like just lying on my bed and hug my cushion. what's wrong with me? i havnt felt this emo since i dunno when. i hate this feeling, i cant even bring myself to smile right now and usually people always say that i'm smiling for no reason. heh.
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?
I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you
Monday, December 3, 2007, 7:50 AM
Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love