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Thursday, August 30, 2007, 1:42 AM
skool was boring today. babycakes wasnt in skool, she was dearly missed by baba and me. GET WELL SOON BABYCAKES! anyway lao shi was being such a bitch today. i really cant stand her lessons. HER VOICE SOUNDS LIKE SANDPAPER. gross man. anyway i was playing tai tee with the guys and she shouted at us and demanded to check our zuo yes. haha luckily we already copied down the answers so she couldnt really say anything. LOSERRRR. lol!
i feel like a child again ever since i entered jc. i play childish games with babycakes and baba, smacking their asses and thighs, saying childish stuff like "I DONT FRIEND YOU." haha omgg, i hope other ppl in class arent irritated with our behaviour. it's fun to act like a child,i know that sounds dumb, but really, its fun. haha! oh yes, and i also started having lesbian tendencies recently. it's all babycakes and baba's fault! they tempt me=( HAHAHAHAHA. but allow me to clarify, i like ACTING lesbian, i'm not lesbian. 100% straight!
anyway after skool i went to waffle town with my dad. the place was filled with acs boys. they're so annoying, they were making so much noise and cursing while playing their stupid magic cards. my dad left me for awhile to get something so i was eating alone. as i was staring at my plate of rice, i heard this masculine voice speaking french. i looked up and my eyes almost popped out! the french guy was the most beautiful guy i've ever seen, he seriously looks like a model, a female one. his face is so pretty! omggg. and he had shoulder length wavy hair. it's weird cause imagine a face like liv tyler with a body like wentworth miller. YES TOTALLY WEIRD! but anyway, i was extremely envious of his face. HE IS SERIOUSLY DAMN PRETTY! perfect features, everything. haha and he was staring at my chicken rice, poor girl, uh i mean, boy, must be hungry after his photoshoot or something. HAHA!
the rain's so nice, think i shall have a short nap. snooooze....
Saturday, August 25, 2007, 11:11 PM
YOU ARE DESPICABLE. I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU. you managed to fool all the guys but you cant fool us, girls. first you present this sweet and friendly image to everyone. obviously, all the guys are won over and i have to admit, i liked you at first too. i thought you could be a good friend. but as time goes by, i start to see your true colors. YOU'RE A MANEATER AND A DOWNRIGHT FLIRT!
you have no morals. toying around with single guys are very wrong, but hell, you even try to flirt with ATTACHED ones! WTF. i really despise you. you dont have a specific group that interests you, you flirt with anything in the world with a dick. GROSS SHITE. and it kills me that guys are blinded by your true colors, and fall prey into your hands. tell me, did you cast some wicked spell on them? cause now, i really think you did.
blogging about you makes me pissed off. okay i'm going to blog about something else. I SERIOUSLY DESPERATELY WANT A PUPPY!!! i've wanted one since i was 5 but because my parents hate animals, i wasnt allowed one. just now i was in the car and at the traffic lights, i saw this young and beautiful woman walking her cocker spanial. omg i want to be like her! she looks so happy and satisfied. i bet her career's going well for her, her love life, family, everything! and when she bent down to play with her dog, ahhh the joy on both her and the dog's face was indescribable. i felt so envious of her. this was what i told my parents.
me: I WANT A DOG!
mum: CRAZY!
dad: NO WAY.
me: whyyyy not!! look at that lady, she looks so happy with her dog! if we have a dog, we'll be happy like her too!
mum: who said we're not happy? we're very happy now, right derek?
dad: yes we are. getting a dog would be so troublesome. you'll have one when you are more responsible.
me: urgh, whatever.
i want a dog, NOW. haha! i sound like a brat. ok shall go do maths now, grrrrr.
Thursday, August 23, 2007, 5:18 AM
how can you do this to me daddy? you just force fed me tang hoon=( now how am i going to get it out? URGH DAMN IT! ok nvm, there is always tmr. i need to calm down.
, 4:45 AM
IT ISNT ENOUGH IT ISNT ENOUGH IT ISNT ENOUGH!i hate mirrors, i really do. why does it take so long??? i hate resting my head in my hands because the brutal truth hits me. WHY CANT ANYONE SEE IT?? only a few can.
its so obvious. i squeeze, prod, jiggle. OMG I HATE IT! i need to do something about it. i cant solve other complications in my life, those never seem to end. this is the one thing that i can fully take charge of, hence, i need to do what i must do. now i understand how the others feel like. nobody understood them, but now i can. will i become like them? or am i already one? i dont know. it doesnt matter, i just need to do smth about it.
be brave, just do it. dont let their voices psycho you. stick to the plan, stick to the plan, stick to the plan.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007, 4:59 AM
until today, i had no idea how painful and powerful some memories can be. something bad happened in school today. i saw xxx and the memories just came flooding back uncontrollably. the sharp and intense pain i felt in my heart at the sight of him was indescribable. i feel really bad for pushing poko away during recess, but really, i just couldnt handle the both of them at one go. it was just too much. anyway i told poko the whole situation after school and he actually thought that he made me upset and was worried about it! oh man, that made me feel worse. but nevertheless, things are fine between poko and me now.
i'm so grateful that babycakes and baba were there for me when i needed them. thanks so much for comforting me=) hmmm i did something bad today, i guess i should really do something about it, change my attitude towards *ahem*, or not i'll seriously suffer. why do i detest it so much? is it because i hate being the weakest? does my pride mean that much to me? oh man, i really dont know. but really, i need to stop whatever i've been doing because it's BAD BAD BAD.
this was seriously a sucky day. i hope tomorrow would be better, it has to!! sigh, i'm so tired right now. think i shall go shower and freshen up!
Saturday, August 18, 2007, 10:13 PM
ahhh i'm extremely happy today! haha the weather's awesome! so nice and cool, great day for a nap! also it's our anniversary today, weeee before you know it, 4 months has passed! haha too bad sunday is a family day, so we cant go out. but oh wells, i'm not sad about that fact, still very happy and i feel so bouncy! i'm listening to the song umbrella now, haha i love the remix man!
i cant believe i passed my grade 8 piano exam. LIKE FINALLY AFTER SO MANY ATTEMPTS! thank you god, i know i couldnt have passed without you there with me that day. oh i love my auntie agnes, she's the most generous person alive! always sending us gifts from america. i went to collect my package today. she sent me a coach bag, wristlet and sneakers, plus nike bag and flip flops! weeee i'm so happy=) didnt know coach had sneakers. haha! my wallet's about to spoil so i was thinking of using my new coach wristlet for school, but my mum said it's attention seeking so i shall not use it for school.
hmmm what else shall i blog about? ah yes! MY DREAM. hahahaha! had such a weird dream last night! dreamt that i was at tiong bahru market with poko. so queer right? we were walking around when we came across a pet shop. now this is the scary part cause i specifically remembered dreaming about this pet shop before, just that in my previous dream, this pet shop was at tiong bahru plaza. FREAAAAKY! so we were looking at fighting fishes and puppies. i desperately want a puppy=( i've wanted one ever since i was 3 years old. my parents dont like animals so i'm not allowed to have a dog. nvm, when i start working next time and i live in my own apartment, i'll definitely get myself a puppy! preferably a cocker spaniel, those are so cute and pretty=)
alrighty i shall go do my history outline now, until next time! adios!
Thursday, August 16, 2007, 3:36 AM
school today wasnt good. why? cause i was pmsing! or at least, i thought i was. one minute, i felt happy and the next, frustrated. urghh i seldom pms, whats wrong with me! ew that means it's coming. noooooooooo.
ok anyway poko carried a backpack today. haha he looked really cute! i think i shall start carrying a backpack to school now. it's so much lighter! haha i realised that guys look alright when they carry backpacks but when girls carry them, it looks kind of childish. why is that so! the world's unfair. HAHA
we had history test in the morning. omg i'm going to fail it! i finished like 5 mins before time plus i only used one sheet of paper while the rest of my classmates used 2. OH SHITE. ah well, i guess i can only hope for the best. haha for recess today, i decided to buy peaches, thanks to cutter's recommendation. omg the peach was canned! it must be, cause it's extremely sweet. hmmm i dont really like it. in fact, i dont really like fruits. haha! yes i know, it's bad for my health not to take fruits and i'll get constipation and cancer but aiya, drinking fruit juices should make up for it right? haha
omg i just checked my friendster views. GROSS THAT BITCH VIEWED ME YET AGAIN. sick sick sick! i dont know what the hell is her problem. why does she have to keep viewing me? this is like her 5th/6th time. the reason why i detest her so much is because of her shallowness. and bev and germaine told me that she isnt a nice girl, which gives me all the more reason to not like her. oh and did i forget to mention that her voice is low and hoarse and she sounds like she has a permanent case of phlegm? YES SHE IS GROSS. i refuse to view her back, why should i increase her profile views? urgh sick bitch.
see, talking about that bitch made me angry. URGH. i wonder if i should go for the catholic retreat camp. i'm not a catholic but it sounds kind of fun. a pilot is coming to give us a talk=) i'm afraid that i'll get too lost during the retreat. hmmm maybe i shall not go, i'll go for maths tuition instead. ew gross.
cursing is bad, i know i shouldnt curse but sometimes, its sooo hard to hold it in. i must use less vulgarities, its so not ladylike! ahhh i suddenly miss mh and mel alot=( i wished they were here in singapore!
ok i shall be a good girl and go read my lit text now.
Monday, August 13, 2007, 1:51 AM
mondays truly suck. i'm having monday blues! classes ended at 4pm today, i guess i cant really complain that ending at 4pm is extremely late cause poor poko ends at 6pm. okay anyway the lit teachers confused their time tables and jasmine tan didnt come in today. yayness! so we went to the com lab and baba and i were looking at hot girls' profiles on friendster. HAHA.
hmmm babycakes and i weighed ourselves today and she freaked when she saw that my weight was below 50kg. is that so bad? i mean, my ideal weight is 48kg. haha! i want to be like ****. she's so effing hot. i know my friends get annoyed when i say i want to lose weight but i think it's becomed an obsession of mine. i'm very unsatisfied with my weight. i look in the mirror and all i see is FAT FAT FAT. babycakes said that if i lose weight too fast, i'll get rapid hair loss and bad complexion. OMGGG. i really dont want that! i guess i should stop my diet but i cant. i wonder if i need to get some help about this weight issue thing. oh wells.
this week is going to be a long and horrid week. 4 tests! WTF. i really ought to start studying for promos, i dont wanna be retained! i guess i really need to cut down on my msn time. i need to have self discipline! okay shall go study now.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007, 8:16 AM
I REALLY MISS MG! the national day celebration here in cj really sucks. we dont even get to sing nice national day songs, like 'count on me singapore'. HAHA. anyway all of us had to sit in the audi for about 2 hours and watch boring skits on saving the environment. yes everyone, YAWN!
my class was kinda separated. t12 took up our row so the latecomers from my class had to sit behind the t12 ppl. i sat all the way at the back with poko. we were so bored we started playing hand games. i dont mean to sound egoistic, but i really rock at the reaction hand game. no one can beat me, muahahaha! okay anyway the wayang sat beside me. GROSS! she sang Home really loudly, her voice is exactly like a wayang's! she's definitely a true blue wayang. when the concert finally ended, i was so keen on using the toilet when ms chok stopped me. she said in a serious tone "diane, can i speak to you for awhile?" my heart sank, i thought she wanted to scold me! anyway this was what she said, "eh diane, was that your bf with you just now? you guys kept moving closer and closer towards each other!" OMG HOW EMBARRASSING. anyway i told her the truth and i was extremely afraid that she'll tell my parents but she went "i'm totally fine with you having a bf. you think i'm so free to go call your parents is it?" PHEW. ok ms chok, thanks for not telling my parents, i'll not stone so much in your classes anymore! HAHA
after the celebration, my class went to marina square for our class lunch! we went to jack's place. OMG THE SERVICE THERE SERIOUSLY SUCKS. they dont serve us properly and when they actually serve us, they do it with this iwanttodie kinda attitude. wthhh. anyway i was so pissed i snapped at a nice waiter and delphne wrote them a bad feedback. haha! doubt they'll read it but oh wells.
yay my movie's done loading. weee shall go watch it now. HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!
Sunday, August 5, 2007, 12:04 AM
I'M BACK! yes yes, i think i shall return to blogging again after taking such a long break. HAHA! okay so how has my life been since the last time i blogged? ah well, there have been ups and downs. more ups than downs, thank god for that. haha
anyway i think i'm one sinful girl. i'm positive that feeling that way about someone is wrong and sinful but i cant help it! nono, i am not being unfaithful to poko, this is about poko, not some other guy. but ahhh, i wished i could write about it here but it's a private matter hence i dont think the whole world should know about it. I CANT GET THAT MOMENT OUT OF MY MIND! OMGGG. stop it diane, stop having sinful thoughts! OH SHITE. i wonder if having these feelings are normal. ah nvm, i shall stop talking about it.
OMG GUESS WHERE I'M GOING TMR. SILRA HOME! i'm not looking forward to it, thats cause i'm afraid of meeting them. once in a biblical movie, ppl with leoprosy lived in caves and were isolated from civilisation. why? cause it's contagious! omg and i'm going to visit them tmr. holy shit. it's not that i look down on them, of course not. it's just that i dont want my reaction to offend them. i hope i'll be able to keep my mouth shut and mask my expressions tmr.
do you know what? you're really starting to annoy me. why do you have to be so different in front of people and in front of me? which is the real you? i swear, you're like a bloody chameleon. you keep changing and i'm having troubles keeping up with these changes! pls just make up your bloody mind and stick to one personality. there are so many things that i cant tell them or him. you, are an example of such matters. everyone has their secrets, that is why i cant tell them or him about you.
oh yes, i'm not looking forward to school tmr. i just found out yesterday that my childhood nemesis is in cj. WTF. i hope he doesnt remember me, it would be so weird if he does. i dont know how i'm going to face him. poko is so sweet, he said he'll protect me from this dickhead! weeee.
man it really feels good to blog again. haha ok titanic's calling me, urghhh.