Hello! I’m Diane and welcome to my blog [:

We talk we walk as friends in summer
But secretly my heart starts to flutter
I try to hide my deep dark secret
To cover it up in an inside trinket
Knowing if I tell you my passionate feelings
Might ruin our wonderful friendship dealings
Yet every time I see your, loving face
I can’t help but to fall in love again with our human race
When around you my hopes come alive
My heart takes flight while my soul begins to dive
An aching, heart burn, breaking feeling
Sinks into my fitful dreaming
My soul drags my heart back down to the ground
Eyes full of tears, wishing to drown in a valley of sound
In my heart it secretly whispers to my weeping
That you’ll never love me the way I’m thinking
I guess I’ll never truly know for sure
Until I gain the courage to endure
To ask the question that comes to mind
Do you love me in your heart like I do in mine?
I suppose until I gain the time
To put my loving feelings on the line
We’ll have to wait to see if love
Can fly between us like a dove
Just remember, that no matter what
My love for you will run deeper then a cut
Let us forget, for now, about love’s beating like a drummer
So we can talk and walk as two friends in summer

haha my whole class was panicking in the morning. we had lit tutorial for first period, and some ppl didnt finish their lit assignment. we heard news that fahy would be back today. so during assembly, all of us were on the look out for fahy. it's quite hilarious really. turned out that he still isnt back yet so yes, i had a feeling that today would be a lucky day. i felt abit cheated though. i rushed like mad to complete my assignment but our class didnt hand it up in the end. haha nvm, it's better to have done it already i guess.

i really feel like telling those people off during the math lecture. dear old mr ho is trying his best to teach us and yet, those people have no respect for him at all. they dont talk softly, they speak at normal volume and their combined voices is louder than mr ho! and whenever mr ho scolded them, they LAUGHED. can you believe it? omggg. i could tell mr ho was trying his best to restrain his anger. he is such a nice old man! why cant those bloody fucktards just shut the hell up? i mean, there are people who actually want to listen to the lecture you know. urghhhh SELFISH FUCKTARDS, HOPE YOU DIE OF STDS.

during break, bimbo made our whole class laugh again. she tried to do some ballet imitation but her face was twitching, my god, you should have seen it. i am so glad that i have someone like bimbo in my class. my class would NEVER be boring cause everyday, she never fails to crack us up. haha bimbo you rawk! anna got caught by the cheekopek. poor girl had to buy the fugly socks from the co-op. i think cheekopek is sexually deprived. i mean, seriously, he goes around perving on girls everyday. he should not be the discipline master man, he should be a pimp! HAHA

after school, anna, bev and i went to coro to meet bernice and fel. OMG I MISS THOSE 2 SOOO MUCH! i felt really happy to see them=) I MUST VISIT THEM AT AC NEXT WK! anyway we had lunch at some western cafe called prince smth. i had pork chop and it was DELEEEEECIOUS. haha! the ambience of that cafe is very 60s. omg and the dim lightings and all made it very romantic. bev and i started fantasizing about having double dates there. HAHAHAHA. we were all exchanging stories about our schools. haha fel and bernice said ac has alot of cute guys. the old me would be "ooooh i wanna see!" but surprisingly now, i am not interested AT ALL. omg can you believe that?? it's like the only person that i want to see or am interested in seeing is poko. HAHA. i must really like him alot i guess. OH POKO! IF ONLY YOU KNEW.....

anna was feeling really tired so she left after lunch. the rest of us headed down to island creamery for dessert. i think island creamery is my favorite hangout now. i just feel so comfortable and all there, and the music that's being played is really nice. haha. oh and i must remember to pee in school before going there, cause the toilet at serene centre SUCKS. IT LOOKS CREEPY AND IT STINKS LIKE HELL. i am very particular about toilets. even when i'm urgent and the toilet stinks, i would hold it in. oh and did i mention that when i'm shopping in orchard, i like to walk all the way to hotels and use the toilets? HAHA. yeah yeah i know, i'm weird right? lol

i do not look forward to the weekends cause i would not see poko for 2 days. awww man! talking to him and seeing him smile in school everyday brightens up my day. ah well, i noticed that i get dreams about poko during the weekends. hopefully, i'll get a nice dream tonight. haha!

It happens every time when I see you
It happens every time when I think of you
It happens every time
Oh it's magic when we meet
Baby down on dream street

why do i keep bumping into you? i used to feel quite normal when that happened but now, i just feel really nervous and happy at the same time. sometimes i feel like pretending not to see you but then my friends would tell me that you are looking and i'll feel bad. see, if i wave/say hi to you too many times, then wouldnt it be too obvious already? it has reached a point whereby making a conversation with you is hard, that's cause i simply run out of things to say when you look into my eyes. if i end our conversations abruptly, i'm sorry! i really dont mean to do that, i just feel like i cant breathe and no, i am not trying to avoid you or anything. i was taking pics with bev, alex and joel today and in my heart, i was wishing that i could take one with just you alone! oh sweet jesus, i am losing my mind.

ok anyway, the most interesting thing that happened today in school, besides my encounters with you, is the pao tossing in class. after school, bimbo had this crazy idea of throwing the pao at the fan. haha it was really scary at first. when the pao came into contact with the blades, it just shot out everyday. and once, part of the pao landed on my cheeks! all the girls were screaming, some even used chairs as shields. haha jonathan was the one that did most of the tossing. i think my class is a pao class. we love having pao parties and well, pao wars. HAHA!

it's only been 3 months that i'm in cj and i can feel myself starting to get sick of the canteen food. i used to be addicted to the jap store but that store has lost it's appeal to me. even noodle king/western best dont seem all that nice anymore. oh nooooo, what am i to do? maybe i should start bringing my own food to school and pack it into my bananas and pyjammas lunchbox. HAHAHAHHAA.

ok anyway alex and annabelle were advising me on what to do about poko. alex's suggestions require a lot of guts, which i am sincerely lacking, when it comes to poko. and annabelle's suggestions are more uh subtle. i'm really not sure what i should do. i really cant just treat him like how i used to cause just the mere sight of him makes my heart race. SOMEBODY HELP ME! should i just make myself stop liking him and forget about it, or should i do something? urghhhh. ok what i need now is music to clear my head.

sing to me the song of the stars
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
when it feels like my dreams are so far
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

I know you notice
When I don’t look into your eyes
Those deep brown pools of temptation
Are too inviting
I am already in too deep
If I let myself give in to desire
I may never come back
They say the eyes are windows to the soul
That is why I can’t reveal mine to you
There are too many things you can never know



















this is going to be another post about my dreams. i had 2 last night! how lucky am i? haha

I LOVE MY FIRST DREAM. LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!! poko was in it! HAHAHAHAHHA. ok anyway i dreamt that i was in this jungle and it was raining heavily AND i was lost. so what did i do? i just sat down and cried. i'm a loser, i know. then poko came running by saying "diane! are you ok? dont be scared, i'm here for you..." OMG HOW SWEET! so i took his hand and we started running. we didnt know where we were heading towards, we just ran. while we were running, i darted a look at him and he turned and gave me a small smile. OMGGG. ok so suddenly we found ourselves at this huge field, filled with long grasses and flowers. and then poko released my hand and ran ahead of me, laughing as he urged me to catch him. AHHHHH. so i chased after him but i never really caught him cause i suck at running. so i just collapsed on the grass patch and started laughing. then he came and laid down beside me and started laughing too. then for a minute, we just stared at the nice big blue sky. in my dream, i swear i saw heart shaped clouds floating by! ok anyway this is my favorite part. i had my eyes shut cause i was just resting. anyway i heard poko get up and soon, i felt smth tickling my nose. i opened my eyes and poko was using this small flower to tickle my nose! OMG HOW SWEET IS THAT?! anyway i sneezed when he did that and he just sat there and laughed at me. ok that's the end of my first dream. I LOVE IT!

i got up in the middle of the night, at 4.20am. i was so angry at myself, i never wanted that nice dream to end! anyway the second dream just didnt make sense. i was walking around in school and there were so many people everywhere. then i saw poko walk past and i called him but he didnt hear me. i called a few of my other friends too but they didnt hear me. then speedo walked past and i said "ok i dont think anyone can hear me." and he stopped, looked at me and said "what?" so i got annoyed at him and shouted "GO AWAY!" he just stood there and looked at me, so i ended up walking away. and that's the end of my weird and stupid dream.

i'm so bored! i am supposed to be doing lit but i dont feel like doing it. haha i'll do it later after dinner. i think i shall go do gp now.

ok quite a few interesting stuff happened today. haha i woke up at 10.02am this morning to the sound of my mom singing to the abba song, Dancing Queen. and this may sound crazy, but the first thought that came to my mind this morning was poko. i cant remember what i dreamt about last night, maybe poko was in my dream that's why he was the first thing that i thought of when i got up. haha!

i went for piano class first. mrs lee was like "why do young girls like to look dark nowadays?" and i said "i didnt get dark on purpose! my skin just burns/tans easily." then she went "you dont look nice dark, fair nicer." grrr THANKS ALOT. i'm really scared that i will remain dark forever. i dont want to revert back to my old fair self, cause i was really TOO FAIR. slightly darker would be nice, as for now, i'm just too dark i suppose. even joash commented that i look odd now. SIGH. ok i think mrs lee is abit weird, i noticed that everytime i wear shorts to class, she would find an excuse to smack my thighs. FREAK SHOW. today the same thing happened. so when she smacked my thighs, i went HEY! and she was like "EXPRESSIONS! HAHAHAHAHA, BANG THE PIANO HARDER!" god, i shall just endure this for a few more months then i shall bid her and her weirdness BYEBYE.

after piano class, i went with my parents to hunt for math tuitions. so i headed to crown centre first. fel asked me to check out the tavern. it was closed but i got the guy's number so my dad is gonna call the guy and find out more. as i continued walking past all the shops, i saw 3 mg girls sprinting past me in their pe attire, shouting and giggling. seeing mg girls makes me miss my old school alot! they look so young and innocent to me. with their new mg shorts (the long one) and their house shirts. HOW I MISS THOSE MG DAYS! one day i shall go back and visit! haha.

we proceeded to balmoral plaza after that to check out novel learning centre. my dad doesnt like that place cause he doesnt like it that one class is mixed with jc 1s and 2s. he feels that the teacher wont be able to focus on the students properly if that's the case cause the teacher keeps moving around. plus, they collect the fees per term, not monthly. so one shot, they're collecting 1000 plus from us. oh well. i felt hungry so we went to waffle town for tea break. this ah beng with golden hair kept staring at me. ok if he stares at me, i dont really care but the thing is my parents saw him staring and that is freakin embarrassing. my mum was like "diane! you know that guy right? he keeps looking at you!" and my dad just keeps glaring at him. I FELT SO EMBARRASSED. so i was like "STOP LOOKING AT HIM PLS!" what made it worst was that he went outside and smoked AND looked in through the glass window at me. then my mum was like "your friend smokes! why are you mixing with smokers??" OMGGG. so i quickly gobbled down my waffle, instead of enjoying it, and went to the car. my parents really embarrass me sometimes. god save me.

i went to bras basah to buy math tys after that. i'm such a good girl! buying math tys to practise=) haha bras basah complex is dumb. i mean, they have escalators, but they switch off every single escalator. wthh. so what's the point of having escalators?! ok then at popular, this fat boy sneezed loudly and this old lady whipped around and shouted "COVER YOUR MOUTH WHEN YOU SNEEZE!" the poor boy was on the verge of crying i swear. his face was all scrunched up and he mumbled a soft apology. i was damn tempted to tell that old hag off. so when she left, i walked over to the fat boy and said "her husband just died, that's why she is so moody." my heart burst with joy the minute the fat boy laughed at what i said. i cant stand people like that. if they get pissed off over little things, then dont come out. just stay locked up in your bloody house so you wont get to encounter other people that might do stuff to tick you off. goodness.

after dinner, i wanted to come straight home but my mum was like "let's go to labrador park!" so we went. omg i saw so many couples there! and i discovered this really romantic restaurant at the park called The Olive. when the sun sets, the restaurant would light scented candles. and the view from the restaurant is spectacular. i swear, almost every table in that restaurant is occupied by couples. adding to the romantic atmosphere was the soft jazz music that was being played. i cant help but stand at the entrance and daydream. haha i shall not say what i was daydreaming about. my parents totally ignored me when we walked through the park. they were in a world of their own. they were walking close to each other and reminising about the good old courtship days. i overheard my dad saying "i still dont like coming to parks. urgh! i just got another bite!" then my mum was like "oh derek, the park is so romantic!" HAHAHAAHHA. i was laughing like mad inside my head. my parents are complete opposites really.

hopefully one day, i'll go dine at the olive with ahem. HAHAHAHA i wished man. unlike my dad, i quite like strolling in the park in the evenings. it really is quite romantic, hahaha. i envy all the lovey dovey couples i saw today. they seem not to have a single care in the world, i guess that's cause they have each other. well i just have to be patient and wait, one day it'll be my turn! lol

i am feeling really down right now. i cant blog about it cause it would be too obvious, according to bev. nvm, i shall blog about my muscle aches. i am aching EVERYWHERE. my legs are the worst, esp the thighs and calves. i cant even walk down the steps properly and i seriously feel like i'm 80 now. i already had muscle aches from the first volleyball training, but it was intensified by the mass pe. and right now, after today's training, i feel like i'm going to die. once i sit down, i dread standing up. if only i could be optimistic about it. according to kian, he says that it's good that i have muscle aches, cause that means the muscles are forming or smth. but i cant. everytime i get up or climb the steps, i am throwing out a string of vulgarities. let me enlighten you about them. well it goes smth like kaninabuchaocheebaihumjipundehkunjitchickennarbehlaaaa. it's like the swear words of different languages mixed together.

anyway i tried to sleep during chinese today. but the lao shi came and rubbed my back to wake me up. urghhhh. some lessons, well it's like time takes FOREVER to pass whereas others, time just seems to fly by. my favorite lecture would be econs because uh haha i shall not mention why. anyway i used to get ticked off by her indecent dressing but now, i dont care cause my focus is on someone else. hahahaha. anyway i got a shock when i caught j***ly staring at my back today. even when i turned around, he was still starring. is it cause i look like a pao from the back? OMGGG. mich said my hair color is the color of the pao fillings. GOOD LORD! i feel very weird whenever i catch a mutual friend staring at me. dont you feel the same way too?

oh yes, i love my maths tutor, mr ho. HE IS SUPER CUTE. he's this little old man who gets very frustrated over little things and he gives very weird analogies. for example, if you take really long to answer a question, he would get all worked up and start to raise his voice. in my head, i'm like thinking "mr ho, calm down pls! dont get a heart attack!" well today he caught me waving at my friend when she walked past, then he started nagging. HAHAHAHA. next thing you know, his student walked past and waved at him and i think he waved back. hahahaha seems like i'm not the only one that's easily distracted. oh yes, his math analogies include hdb flats and i cant remb what the other random stuff are.

i survived volleyball training today! I SURVIVED GRAND STAND TORTURE! managed to complete ten sets. whoohoo! but other than that, i was feeling pretty down due to my muscle aches and other stuff la. i need something to take my mind off you, i shall go listen to happy songs. hopefully the cartoon heroes, AQUA, can cheer me up.

I AM FEELING SUPER EXHAUSTED NOW. volleyball training was tough but fun! at the end of the training, i felt like i was about to collapse but now thinking back on it, i actually enjoy it. i get this feeling of accomplishment that i was able to do all those physical stuff. everyone in volleyball is so friendly and nice! oh yes, and they are MAD ABOUT VOLLEYBALL. haha!

speedo was training at the courts too and i felt extremely self conscious. that is extremely dumb. if i dont really like him anymore, why do i even care if he sees me making a fool out of myself? anyway i wish that he would stop appearing in front of me, the sooner i forget about him, the better. i am a 100% positive that i like poko now. he is so much better than speedo in so many ways man. AND i am actually myself when i'm around him. he's the cutest and sweetest guy ever!

ok back to volleyball. warm ups was 3 rounds the track. i havnt runned since before the march hols and my stamina really dropped like shit. by the end of the first round, i felt tired. can you believe it, FIRST ROUND ONLY. i was quite surprised that i made it through the 3 rounds, of course i was one of the last few to return. haha! i realised that i have this bad habit of not knowing what to do with my arms when i run. when i clench my fist and swing my arms, it doesnt feel natural. so i always pretend to like pull down my shorts or tie my hair when i run just cause i dont know what to do with my arms. haha so stupid la. ok so after the warm ups, we had to do a combination of sprints. there's one whereby it looks like a dance! it involves you crossing your legs and twisting your hips! some girls look damn cool doing it. but since i am cursed with having bad combinations, i look like a freaking clown. one senior standing at the side said "she looks damn cute! hahahahaha" OH BOY. what's wrong with me, honestly. why cant i look normal or cool when i do the sprints?? in the end right, one senior had to personally teach me how to do the dancing sprint. haha she's such a nice and patient teacher! ok then there's one sprint whereby you gotta kick your legs up in the air and clap below your legs. once again, i look completely odd doing that. haha but i will practice! i will not give up! one day, i'll look cool when i'm doing the dancing sprint! haha

then we learnt how to do digs and settings. i think i locked my elbows too much, now my shoulders hurt. as for settings, i still havnt mastered it yet. I NEED TO GET A VOLLEYBALL TO PRACTISE! shijing was like saying that i should catch the ball near my forehead. so being the idiot that i am, i think i like stuck my face out at the ball and the ball ended up hitting my face. THANK GOD THE VOLLEYBALL ISNT HARD ENOUGH TO BREAK MY NOSE OR SOMETHING. after this, we did more sprints. i realised that i have little difficulty sprinting forward as for backwards sprints, I CANT DO IT AT ALL. my entire legs hurt like bitch when i run backwards. i dont get it! why is this possible? janan and brendan make the backwards sprints look like chicken feet. i think they were even laughing during it whereas i was like panting like mad. again, I NEED MORE PRACTISE! haha the bonding games was quite fun, we had to do some dances, like the cha cha, tango and pole dancing. HAHAHAHHA

after that, we had pt, the ultimate nightmare. i died during that one. girls had to do 5 sets of sprints up the stairs and 2 sets of jumps. i did until the sprints but when it came to the jumps, i felt dizzy so i told ms smith and she allowed me to rest. i think i have the worst stamina in the whole team. this is so embarrassing, i really need to build up my stamina! then we had to do 3 sets of crunches, push-ups and some exercise involving the steps. I LOVE CRUNCHES. REALLY REALLY LOVE IT. it's only during crunches that i count aloud with the rest of the team. as for the others, i am busy throwing out vulgarities in my head. haha. why cant i do a single man push up?? my arms cant even move! omg. only my ass moves and i sure as hell know that is wrong! and i have no idea how to improve on my man push-ups. haha!

i have mass pe tmr. i have a feeling i wont be able to do it cause everyone keeps telling me that i'll get severe muscle aches tmr. OH MAN. i hope mrs tan would understand. i'm looking forward to the next volleyball training, hopefully i would be able to do everything, mainly the grand stand torture, during that. haha

today was my first time wearing the cj uniform to school! i was extremely excited about it. i got up early and asked my dad to do my tie for me. he asked me how long i wanted it to be, i said i didnt know. then he was like "i saw this show whereby the ladies had short ties. you can try having that." so i said fine but the minute i stepped into the school. i felt a few people giving me looks. then when i entered class, anna and bimbo saw me and laughed! my tie was too short!! HAHA. so we went to the toilet and adjusted our ties and uniforms. bimbo said my skirt was too long so i folded it up. sigh, if only my mum allowed me to alter it!!

i really cant stand my form teacher. i think she has something against me as she keeps calling my name and looking at me. but i'll try not to show my dislike towards her since it'll definitely have negative impacts on me. my pe teacher really doesnt look like a pe teacher. she looks like a chinese/canteen auntie. she seemed kinda friendly but i heard she can be damn strict. i miss mr new! mr new used to be super lenient with us, if i didnt want to do physical conditioning, all i have to do is fake that i have menstrual cramps and he totally buys that! haha! but this mrs tan looks very strict and i doubt i can fool someone like her. oh man! anyway during pe today, we took our height and weight. i'm so happy i grew 1cm and lost 1kg. weeee! my chinese teacher looks and sounds weird. she looks malnourished and she sounds as if she's got something up her ass. i really cant help but imitate her disgusting voice during chinese lessons. haha!

alright so after school, i had lunch with bev in the school canteen. it feels weird not being in the same class as bev anymore. i miss having her in class! basically i just miss my old class alot la. haha. we went to the library after school to surf the net for abit and anna joined us later. bev couldnt come to island creamery with us so i left with anna to meet fel. it's so fun matchmaking with anna! we were just pairing up our friends together and laughing like mad over some absurd pairings. haha! then fel came to join us and she updated us on how ac is like.

i felt really weird when i was wearing my uniform cause i've been wearing a pinafore for years. i think i look abit funny in it. one of my friends saw me in the uniform and started laughing. oh boy! then another one couldnt recognise me at all when i said hi. haha well speedo and poko look HOT AND CUTE in their uniforms! i can feel myself liking poko more than speedo as time passes each day. seeing speedo with her just makes me sad and the fact that he doesnt even know me makes me tired of having feelings for him. as for poko, everytime i communicate with him, i feel so excited and happy! he really is the cutest boy i've ever seen, i bet alot of girls secretly like him too. haha! i'm giving myself one week to decide whether i'm going to do anything about poko or not. i keep finding myself looking out for him during breaks and listening to his favorite songs. goodness.

meanwhile, i'm currently hooked to the song "patience" by take that. btw i do not like it cause of poko. haha

on the last day of the march hols, i spent my day at home with my parents. arent i a good daughter? haha. anyway after lunch, i was seriously bored so i took a book with me,went to my room and flopped down on my bed, and started to read. soon the words started to spin and i could feel my eyes closing. well i ended up napping for 3 hours straight and i had the strangest dream ever! best thing is, i remember every single detail of my dream. here's what happened in my dream.....

the setting of my dream is the Forbidden City. that's right, i dreamt about the wonderful Qing Dynasty. i was wearing ugly peasant clothes, pushing a cart of watermelons with my father. the streets were bustling with life, there were performers, fortune tellers, craftsmen, etc. i remember feeling like i couldnt walk anymore and started complaining. so we pushed the cart to a side and took a rest. suddenly, the imperial guards came, riding on their horses. the man riding on a magnificent white stallion was my friend, the one that i think i like now. anyway in my dream, he was a prince! and the highest ranking guard riding beside my friend was speedo. LOL funny huh? anyway even in my dream, i couldnt take my eyes off those two guys.

speedo got down on his horse and read a scroll. it was the emperor's words. "His Majesty is looking for a queen and seven concubines! all girls between the ages of 13 to 17 are free to register at the office tomorrow!" as he read aloud the emperor's words, i cant help but stare at him. what a strong and masculine voice he has! he looked like a serious man and i was kinda intimidated by him. the prince on the other hand just looked so handsome and approachable. after that, they rode away and people immediately started talking. "father, i am going to sign up! if i get selected, we wont have to live in misery anymore and our family would be rewarded with hundreds of taels!" i told my father and he agreed.

i went down to register my name at the office. the guard sitting behind the table was my secondary school drinkstore uncle, hock seng. he looked freakin hilarious in the imperial guard's uniform. he started examining me from head to toe and asked me to report back here at dawn tomorrow. then my dream just fast forward to me standing in line with about 30 other girls, waiting to enter the Forbidden City. i met my friends, anna, fel, bev and mich there. haha of course in my dream, i dont know them. mich started saying "i cannot stand the scorching sun! it is giving me rashes!" my guess was that she was a nobleman's daughter, not used to standing under the sun and doing work. anna also looked like a nobleman's daughter from the shiny dress she was wearing. fel looked extremely scared and nervous and bev kept fanning herself and saying "OMG!" hahahahha

anyway soon we were led into the palace. the emperor and the empress dowager was there. standing at the sides were the princes and of course, speedo, highest ranking officer. ok i shall just call speedo the general and my friend the prince. anyway this is really funny, because in my dream right, all my friends' eye candies were princes/imperial guards! we kneeled down in a row and when our name was called by a eunuch, which happened to be tan jek suan, we had to recite "long live the son of heaven!" after that, the emperor would choose his queen and 7 concubines. i started to get nervous and impatient. i havnt seen the emperor's face yet so i risked looking up, and at that moment, i almost vomitted. the emperor was joshua ang, that gross actor from I Not Stupid. well he saw me looking and raised his eyebrows in amusement. the empress dowager(who is my school librarian) saw me looking up and immediately reprimanded me.

"you there! what is your name?" she pointed and demanded.
"my name is ying, your highness." i said and trembled.
"you audacious girl! how dare you look the son of heaven in the eye when not granted permission to? guards!" she ordered.
i freaked out and starting banging my forehead on the floor, apologising profusely.
"Halt! Mother i have made my decision on my queen and concubines." the emperor said. the empress dowager was stunned but motioned for him to announce his decisions. he walked down from his throne and circled us. if he handed us a chip, it means we are chosen. the first chip went to mich and she was the empress. my friends all got a chip and i got the last chip. i almost died, even in my dream, i couldnt stand joshua ang's face. the empress dowager protested when he handed me a chip but no one could change the emperor's decision.

anyway a ceremony and banquet was held after the selection. i needed to use the toilet halfway during the ceremony so i was escorted by a guard to the washroom. on my way there, i met speedo. he looked at me and with a straight face, he bowed. my heart started slamming against my chest as i said "oh hello general!" he said to me, in that strong masculine voice of his, "congragulations on being selected, Lady Ying. May you have a good evening." and with that, he strided off. OMG. anyway i hurried to the toilet. and guess what, on my way back, i met the prince! hahahaha! we were of the same rank so we didnt really have to bow to each other. as usual, i said "hello!" he gave me a friendly smile and introduced himself as prince ****. we started chatting as he told me stuff about the palace.

i have no idea what made me say it, but i found myself telling the prince that i found the emperor's face unbearable. the prince chuckled softly and nodded his head. suddenly this cold voice said from behind me "take back those words, Lady Ying." i spun around and saw the general, flashing his angry eyes at me. the prince came to my rescue, saying "general, lady ying here was just joking. relax." "criticising his majesty's looks is no joke, prince ****." he said coldly. "omg shit! um um i'm sorry!" i said. "shit? that is not the way a lady should speak, my lady." general said. the prince got annoyed and said "drop it general. do you have something against the lady? why do you keep picking on her?" then both of them just glared at each other. then suddenly right, both of them grabbed each of my hands and looked at me. as if urging me to make a decision and i could do nothing to stop the tears from flowing out of my eyes.

AND THAT CONCLUDES THE END OF MY DREAM! HAHAHAHAHHA. such a weird dream man. i really need to make a decision. anyway i hope i can continue my dream tonight!

i'm feeling damn bloated and tired now. but i cant sleep cause i have to wait for my hair to dry, haha. anyway just got back from t11's class bbq. before the bbq, i met bernice, sean, dong dong and kian for pool. we went to this place in toa payoh central to play. according to bernice, the minute we walked in, there were alot of people staring at us. oh well, i didnt really notice that happening. anyway pool was fun, as usual. sean and kian are really good at it! oh and i played singles with dong dong. he is such an ass! keeps laughing at me or saying stupid stuff to distract me. urghhhh. but i gotta admit that he still won me in the end. damnnnn. haha one day, i shall win him!

so after pool, dong dong went to meet the rest of our classmates at the control station whereas the rest of us went back to sean's house to prepare. we didnt really do much preparation, ended up playing jenga. haha jenga is fun! i love the suspense of waiting for the blocks to tumble down. dong dong had to wait an hour for the rest and he got really impatient. he kept phoning sean, and according to sean, he was throwing out vulgarities over the line. HAHA! the actual bbq started at around 8. it was great! i love the pineapple and sprite mix, the bee hoon, the otah AND of course, MARSHMALLOWS. omg i think i ate too much la. i think i ate about 7/8 marshmallows, how sinful! haha sean and shaun got dunked! damn funny. dong dong was supposed to get dunked too but he refused, so in the end, he ended up biting shaun's soggy socks. HAHAHAHAHA. if i were him, i would just choose to get dunked. haha!

i'm looking forward to the next class outing, which weiming is planning cause he lost the jenga game! haha, weee i think it will be at the zoo/night safari. how cool is that! haha anyway today was a long but fun day. not looking forward to tmr though, gonna be stuck at home. darn it.

this is bad, REALLY BAD. it is the first time in 10 years, mind you, that i have slept for 11 hours straight. surely this must mean something. no, i wasnt having this super exciting dream, in fact, i dont even remember what i dreamt about. all i remember was thinking about him before going to sleep. from the first time we met all the way to our latest meeting. who is this guy? haha well it aint speedo. THIS IS WHY I AM CONFUSED AS HELL.

it's like it just hit me this morning that all along, i sort of had feelings for him. this guy is actually my friend, well quite a good friend, and that is why i feel so sinful! but some may say, isnt this better? if he is your friend, things would be so much easier. BUT get this, i am damn scared that because of my feelings, our friendship would be affected. this situation is sort of like the guy-girl best friend thing, and suddenly one day, the girl falls for the guy. i actually thought speedo was my crush but after talking to fel online last night, she made me see the light. she said that since i didnt even know speedo, so he is just an eye candy, as for my friend, it's more real since i know him and my feelings just grew on him.

but this is still so wrong! nothing is going to happen cause i'm definitely not going to tell him about it. plus, we even sort of promised each other that we would both remain single during jc. OMG. i'm seriously wondering, am i being very fickle? you know one minute it's speedo, then i decide to give him up, then i like speedo again and now this. what the hell is wrong with me?? you know i think my brain is screwed up. oh wait, not my brain, cause the brain doesnt control your feelings. it's my damn heart. urghhhh. what am i going to do with you now??? i seriously hope that i am able to hide my feelings from you cause i seriously dont want to ruin our friendship. actually, i think it's possible to hide them from you, cause YOU'RE SO BLUR. HAHAHAHAHA. i seriously curse that bloody picture, why did you have to look so hot in there?! oh great, now i'm thinking about the times when you were acting lame and stupid. GOD.

i hope that the class bbq later would help take my mind off you, as for now, i am counting on my beloved wentworth miller to do that job.

went to play pool today with cheerin, janan and yuhao. haha we were supposed to meet at 3pm but all of us were late. lol. we had to wait for a pool table at paradigm since we were kinda late and the tables were all being used. thank god we didnt wait long for a table. we played doubles. janan and cheerin vs yuhao and me. omggg both of them are really pro at pool! they beat us in every single game. SIGH. haha but it was good fun! janan taught me a few tactics, guess i need more practice to perfect those tactics. haha! oh yes, yuhao is a perfectionist man! haha it's so funny, he always has to use the cue to measure the distance or whatever before hitting. lol. thanks to a senior in volleyball, janan calls me THE END now and i call him JAR NUN. just when i was about to hit the black ball in, he went "diane is THE END." then i laughed and missed! OH MAN WHAT A WASTE.

lol after playing a few games, cheerin smelt sour cream chips. then we all started to get hungry so we stopped playing and went over to ps to eat. we wanted yoshinoya but yuhao was against it so we settled on long john's silver! at long john's silver, i saw this weird couple walk in. from the side, i thought the man was a girl cause he seriously looked like one. so i told janan and when the guy was queueing up, we looked at him. janan was like "it's a guy la..." and i was like "girl girl!" then yuhao and cheerin were looking too, and SUDDENLY, the guy turned around. i was shocked so i quickly looked to the side but i guess he caught us looking. haha! omg i swear, some guys seriously look like girls from a certain angle. whether or not that's a good thing, i cant really tell. haha!

after dinner, we decided to watch a movie. yuhao had to go meet his class so only the three of us stayed for the movie. we decided to watch "Letters from Iwo Jima". it was a great movie. at first it was kinda boring, cause you know the characters just kept going on and on about military plans and all. when the actual fighting took place, that's the climax of the movie. now i know why the movie is rated nc 16, it is so damn gory i tell you. body parts being blown up, and there's blood everywhere. the japs are really nuts over honour and all. when the americans were about to enter the cave and the japs were badly outnumbered, instead of fighting to the end, they decided to use the grenade to blow themselves up. SO STUPID! i mean, which would serve the emperor better, dead men or men who fight till their last breath? oh yes, it's a war movie and it's supposed to be damn sad but i was laughing during a few parts. NOT BECAUSE OF THE MOVIE, BUT BECAUSE OF THE LAO AH PEK BEHIND. omg he is damn hilarious! i swear, it's his first time watching a movie cause he gets fascinated with everything the character does. and he voices out his thoughts, and his voice is freaking loud. damn hilarious i tell you. oh and i sat beside two gays. when lieut. nichi came on, one of the gays went "that one is cute" haha and their cologne was suffocating. ah well, but i like gays, have nothing against them. it's lesbians that seriously need to fuck off.

so after the movie, i took the train back. it was a long journey, not unpleasant though. there was this super cute guy standing by the doors. haha then when i first got on, i happened to turn around and saw him. the thing that caught my eye was his hair. it's the messy kinda cute. anyway when i looked at him, he happened to look at me too and i got embarrassed so i smiled a little and he gave a slight smile too. OMG SO CUTE! ok so during the long ride, i stealing looks at him from the reflection in his window. there was this super cute girl standing beside me too, and she keeps shouting weird stuff. like "MUMSIE PIE!" i have no idea what on earth that is. but the best thing is everytime she shouts, that cute guy would look in our direction, then i would sort of catch his eye and we would have that knowing smile, speaking unpoken thoughts like "haha kids...."

so yes, i had fun today and i cant wait for tmr. gonna meet anna to buy school uni and then we're going to island creamery! whoohoo!

I'M FINALLY 17! WHOOOHOOO! i've had a great birthday today, thanks to my friends. first off, i want to thank all my darling friends who have wished me happy birthday, thanks for remembering guys! haha! oh yes, and i love my pressies! fel and anna gave me a speedo water bottle and top! OMGGG I REALLY LOVE THEM! i'm going to use the water bottle everyday for school AND i'll wear the sexy speedo top when i play volleyball. HAHAHA. bev and yuling gave me cool vintage necklace and earrings. thanks babes! and mich gave me a sweet esprit shirt. LOVE IT!

met my friends at 12.30 today at cityhall station. i felt really self conscious cause it was my first time ever wearing a tube dress out. there was this cheekopek on the train starring at me, GROSS. i should have brought a jacket along or something. and i was sooo worried that my tube dress would fall so i kept pulling it up, haha i think people thought i was weird since i kept pulling up my dress. anyway we went to New York New York for lunch. it was AWESOME. i love the deco and all, we managed to even get a booth to ourselves! haha! we ordered the great yankee burger, cheese fries, salmon salad and tuna sandwich and shared everything. the food was delicious! it felt so nice just chatting and joking with my friends. my friends surprised me when they ordered a slice of chocolate cake and tiramisu with a candle on top for me. then they sang the birthday song. it was sooo sweet! THANKS BABES, I LOVE YOU GUYS! omg even the waiter bought me hot chocolate with marshmallows in it. i was quite shocked. haha! oh and i had no idea that it was a tradition to use your mouth to pick out the candles after you blow it. i felt so weird doing that and i ate abit of ash even. yuk! then my friends made me lick the chocolate words on the plate, i looked so dumb doing that man. haha! so after eating, we all felt really bloated so we just sat back and relaxed on the comfy sofa. then the song "lose my breath" came on, and i told fel that it was her song. i could just imagine her singing that song to her ec. LOL. then she was like, "ok the next song will be your song!" then anna was like "the next song shall be candy shop!" and i went "ewww, 50 cent has a black candy." and bev went "yeah coca cola flavor!" HAHAHAHAHHA.

we went bowling after lunch. on our way there, there was this man who stopped us, saying that he was interested in us going for an interview to be advertisers. so i decided to screw him up abit. when he asked for my name, i said it was MARY TAN and i gave him a fake number. LOL. anyway bowling was super fun! we played two games. i didnt bowl well for the first game. but during the second game, we decided to change all our names to our crushes' names. so mine was SPEEDO'S NAME. AND GUESS WHAT, I IMPROVED! I EVEN MANAGED TO GET A SPARE MAN! LOL. you know the first time my friends all shouted speedo's name just when i was about to release the ball, i felt my heart squeeze and i just froze. lol i really need to get a grip! thank god speedo wasnt there today, i think he would just freak out if he saw his name on the screen. fel is really pro at bowling! she looks so stylo milo when she bowls, haha. oh and anna is damn cute! she dropped the bowl twice! lol it was damn funny. oh yes, it was quite embarrassing when i tried to swing my ball really high up but ended up hitting my leg and the ball went straight into the gutter. haha i'm a klutz! so anyway after bowling, we went to shop for earrings and acessories. then mich and bev had to leave. after that i had dinner with anna and mich, walked around abit and left for home. i was so glad that brenda called me to wish me. i really miss talking to her. haha come back soon to visit brenda!!

it's been a fun filled day today and i really enjoyed my birthday. thanks guys for spending my birthday with me, I LOVE YOU!!

ok i shall blog all about what happened yesterday. got to meet my new class for the first time, i was really nervous and excited about it. i was praying hard that my class would have nice people, cause if there happens to be any sucky people, well i would have to be stuck with them for 2 whole freakin years. THANK THE LORD MY CLASS HAS NICE PEOPLE! i'm in t13, haha i know, the number rocks. 19 peeps in my class, 4 guys and 15 girls. whoohooo girl power! haha!

i'm so glad anna, mich and bimbo are in my class! weeeeee. at first i thought some of the girls were kinda dao, but after the icebreakers, well i was proven wrong! haha. well we had to register our ccas yesterday. i was kinda torn between volleyball, hockey and drama. i'm not a sporty person, but i told myself last year that when i go to jc, i want to try something different. i want to join a sports cca and take up the challenge. ok so why was it such a hard decision to choose? well i love volleyball and i heard that it's the slackest sports cca. lots of my friends are in hockey so they wanted me to join that. as for drama, well i love to act and i'll always be in the lecture theatre, so that means, air-con!! in the end, i chose volleyball. i totally freaked out when they brought us to the "cave" and told us that they were going to do a selection test. i was panicking like shite cause there were 30 girls (SPORTY TAN LOOKING GIRLS) and only 10 would be chosen. so what were the chances of me making it into the team? almost NIL. they wanted to test us on our digs, jumps and spike. well i gave it my best shot. i seriously need to stop making noises you know. when i spiked the ball and it went really far, i went "WHOOHOOOO!" so embarrassing! so at the end of the trials, the coach said "if i throw you a volleyball, means you're in the team." i had already given up hope so it came as a HUGE SHOCK when he threw me the ball. according to bev, the look on my face was priceless. i gave a huge gasp and had a look of disbelief i think. i remember hearing people laughing at me and the volleyball captain going "haha this one very cute!" LOL. anyway i was deliriously happy that i made it! i could not believe that they would choose me! what's even better was that bev made it into the team too!! weeeeeee! haha! ok i'm going to train hard now and be a sporty gal! byebye gu-niang diane and HELLO MISS SPORTY! hahahhahha.

alrighty so after volleyball, bev and me went to fel's house to get ready for rockerfella. then we met anna and went back to school together. let me tell you, ROCKERFELLA WAS A BLAST!! before the concert started, bev and i were checking out hot guys. LOL. i know, very bimbotic, yes. but there seriously were many hot guys there at the concert! it's like they just popped out of nowhere. haha! oh yes, i saw speedo too=) my favorite bands were the ones that won top 3! they were fa-q, mx's band and the vacuum cleaners. the vacuum cleaners seriously surprised everyone. they looked like kukus and were cj uniforms. but let me tell you, when they started playing, they seriously surprised everyone. they were awesome! great stage display and musicality. mx's band was awesome too! i was screaming like mad for these two bands but i told myself i have to save my voice for FA-Q. wanna know why? cause tim and speedo lookalike were in that band! omg the minute they walked on stage, I WENT WILD. speedo lookalike was fucking hot! and guess what, he played lead singer AND guitarist! OMGGGG. i was screaming like mad and yes, i totally acted like some crazy woman. tim was great too! basically everyone in their band kicked ass and they totally deserved to win top band.

ok i shall go get ready now, going to brendan's house for ig outing. until next time, adios!

ok this will be a short entry cause my eyes are about to close. today was the finale night for orientation 2. i have to say, it was much more fun today. we went to the police academy to play games. it was fun! esp the soapy sliding game. haha i tried to slide gracefully but i ended up on my ass. HOW UNGLAM! then there was this game where we had to shampoo our hair, and squeeze out the foam on someone. thank god the shampoo smelt nice. anyway my hair was a mess after that, all knots and tangles! jonathan commented "ok diane, you are not a bimbo anymore." HAHA! it really makes me wonder, am i really that bimbotic? just cause i laugh loudly and act kinda girly at times, i'm a bimbo? hmmmm.

my ig didnt get the muddy stations today. so we were lucky. the only game that was a torture was the bloody caterpillar game. OMG I HATE THAT GAME. we had to entwine our legs and move with our hands. it's super hard to move quickly. my ass hurt like shite and i had a wedgie! it was damn uncomfortable. everyone was complaining and cursing during that game. esp the guys, as they were saying how much their balls hurt. HAHA. i think i'll get rashes on my ass tmr. the last time i slid down a hill, the next morning, i had a rashy butt! omgg i pray that will not happen to me again.

the dinner sucked. I HATE CHINESE WOK. gross food. the house competition was a blast! could really feel the cj spirit and it was GREAT. OMG I CHEERED AND SCREAMED MY HEART OUT! now i'm about to lose my voice. haha but that's alright, cause SKA WON THE BEST HOUSE! WHOOOHOOOOOO. *does a victory dance* although our house number was small, we still won! omg we totally kicked ass! HAHA!

oh yes, i saw speedo again. haha! and his lookalike. i think speedo looks better but some of my friends think his lookalike is better. ahhhh. anyway i shall go and sleep now. zzzzzz

today was the first day of orientation. i was feeling kinda nervous at the start of school. i was really praying that i'll know at least one person in my new ig. thank god i knew 2, yuling and ming xuan. haha! ig 04 is very different from ig 27 and my class t11. I MISS MY OLD IG AND CLASS SOOO MUCH. everytime i see someone from t11 around, i'll shout their names and go over and talk to them. the people in my new ig are nice but i cant really click well with them.

orientation was boring today. the games sucked. the best part was the mass dance but even that, it wasnt THAT fun. i dont really like the new mass dance cause the steps are kinda messy. thank god they kept the bhangra part. that was the best! i partnered yuyuan for the first dance, haha it was fun! I LOVE THE RUNNING/SPINNING PART. i think i ran too fast and made him dizzy, and he went "ahhh princess, you spin so fast!" LOL SORRY FISHBALL! the second dance i danced with yuling, she was the guy and i, the girl. haha that was fun too!

i was looking out for speedo in the morning today, knowing fully well that he wouldnt be there. god i'm such a loser man. then anna told me that there was this guy who looked like him. and true enough, they really do lookalike! except this guy has spiky hair and pimples. haha so many things reminded me of speedo today, that lookalike PLUS i kept seeing his friends everywhere. i really missed him alot and guess what, I SAW HIM AFTER SCHOOL. LOL. i felt damn happy! bev, fel, rey and i were sharing ghost stories after school today. omg rey is such a funny storyteller. it's supposed to be scary but the way he narrates, it's damn funny. we ended up laughing in the end. HAHA! i'm so happy fel came back to visit after school, i really miss her company! she's going to crash again tmr, yay!

ok i probably should go sleep now, have a long day ahead tmr. muddy games and finale night. looking forward to it!

OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT THIS MIGHT BE MY LAST DAY BEING IN CJ! AHHHHH NOOOOOO. i dont wanna leave cj! cj holds such special memories for me... omg nooooo! anyway today has been one of the best school days ever.

we ended early at 12 today. whoohooo! had econs lecture for first period. it was super slack until this indian witch came in and shouted at us to shut our mouths. GEEZ WOMAN, IT'S OUR LAST DAY, GIVES US A BREAK WILL YA? god. had pe after that. as usual, me and bev were walking during our warm ups. then mr new was like "it's your last pe lesson, run!" then you know me, when i get pissed, i will just let it out. so i said "DAMN YOU!" it was pretty loud, i only hope he didnt hear my outburst. haha! we played captain's ball and soccer with another class. omg that class is super cheena i tell you. ALL OF THEM SPEAK CHINESE. omggg. during captain's ball, i was the goalie and i had this boundary that i assumed no one could step into. then one guy jumped in and i was like "OI! MY BOUNDARY MAN!" then he said "KE YI TIAO JING QU!!" so i replied "ke yi tiao meh?" and he insisted "KE YI LA!" HAHAHAHAHAH DAMN FUNNY I TELL YOU. i have never seen this class before. it's like they popped out of nowhere, all these cheena-fied peeps. soccer was really funny. they were pissed that they kept losing to us to one of them was like "TI DA LI YI DIAN!" HAHAHAHAHHA. and dong dong accidentally kicked a ball into this girl's tummy. SHE WAS DAMN FREAKIN PISSED THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE GAME. omg it was scary AND funny at the same time. haha!

finished watching the movie mo zi ge li during chinese today. omg it was sooo tragic! THE PRINCE DIED! AHHHHH. I CANT STAND THE KING. HE SUCKS AND HE HAS NO BALLS. it's such a sad thing that yi yue and ge li cant be together, cause she drowned to death. OH WHAT TRAGEDY! it was a great movie overall, watch it ppl! i'll miss you peter thia! you're one of the coolest chinese lao shis that i know!

ok after school was the captain's ball finals and that's the best part. now i know i blogged that i'll never look at speedo ever again and that i no longer have any feelings for him. but guess what? the minute i saw him playing captain's ball on the courts, all those buried feelings began to surface again. omg i truly suck la. why oh why cant i just forget speedo? urghhhh diane, you really need to get a grip! my heart was slamming hard against my chest when i saw him playing. you have no idea how tight my fists were clenched from trying to restrain myself from cheering for him. OMG HE IS SO CUTE WHEN HE DEFENDS! he waves his long arms in the air, looking serious, and omg, his shirt lifts up a little to we all get a little peek of what's underneath! HAHAHAHAHHA WHOOPS. today was the day that i've heard you spoke the most! ahhhh. you're such an easygoing person, the way you joke with your class, the way you lead them when you play the game (sexaye!) and the way you tease them. and when you finally sat down next to me, i swear, the whole word disappeared and time just froze. i couldnt breathe, i couldnt move, i couldnt speak. a thousand thoughts were racing through my mind. i was so tempted to just turn and look at you but my head just wouldnt move. i just kept starring straight away. it was the best moment ever! you there, being so close yet so far away from me. AHHHH I NEED TO STOP THIS NONSENSE. ok no more speedo. NO MORE SPEEDO! ah shit, who am i kidding? i am still not over him! urghhh. ok i need time.

i'm looking forward to tmr. kinda hoping i'll get into ac and also kinda hoping i'll be posted back to cj. oh well, tmr morning, i'll see what god has planned for me! looking forward to the class outing tmr. oh man, i think i wont be able to sleep tonight. speedo, jae results and class outing! omggg i think i seriously need a reality check.

it's a sunday and I'm stuck at home! haha not that i mind really, it's tiring to keep going out and well, orchard is starting to bore me. haha! i just finished watching Cheaper by The Dozen. it's such a funny and sweet movie! omg the kids in the movie are ADORABLE! esp the twin boys!! ahhh i want twin boys in the future too! i wont be like kate baker, who claims that having 12 kids makes life worth living. i think i'll just have 3. twin boys and a girl. weeeee! haha

alrighty since nothing much happened today, i shall blog about my class outing yesterday. we were supposed to meet at 11am at harbour front station. i was late! (as usual) i was so sure that i wouldnt be late, cause i woke up at 9 and that gave me more than enough time to get ready. so how on earth did i end up 40 mins late you ask? haha well uh, i got carried away watching videos on youtube. heh. on the train ride there, i sat beside this stinky old man. i was terrified i tell you. he was sleeping and he kept you know, leaning towards me. i didnt want his hair, which looked like it hasnt been washed for months, to touch me. so i kept leaning towards the china man next to me. he was with his china gf, and she actually thought that i was trying to get close to her bf so she shot me a few glares. WTH. pls, as if i would be interested in your cheena bf. goodness! in the end, i just stood up and moved to another seat. haha

our class outing comprised of two parts, sentosa and bbq. only 13 ppl went to sentosa. 2 girls, bev and me, and the rest are all guys. at first bev and me felt kinda weird, you know, walking around with so many guys and all, but after awhile we got used to it. we decided to have lunch at SUPERDOG before heading to sentosa. it was my first time eating there. ordered the chicker ripper, it was nice=) following that, we took the shuttle bus to sentosa. i wanted to go to siloso beach cause that's where all the hunks would be. HAHA! but we ended up going to palawan beach cause it was nearer. true enough, no hot hunks there. only fat/hairy ang mohs and scrawny guys. what a disappointment. hahaha. the guys played beach soccer while bev and i just sat on the sand, chatting and of course, GOSSIPING. i missed the part of anthony being dunked cause i was at coffee bean. ahhh damnit. haha but joel bluetoothed me the video. it was super hilarious! omg anthony, i swear your scream is higher than a girl's! LOL. we also played captain's ball. it's so hard to run around in the sand so i decided to be the goalie and just catch the ball. hahahaha yes, i'm such a slacker huh?

soon we headed back to kian's place for bbq! the bbq totally kicked ass! kian's mom's seasoning for the pork chop and chicken wings was omggg SINFUL. it was fun looking after the food and turning them over. although the smoke was in my face and it felt like i was being barbequed as well, it was fun! then bev scared me, telling me to be careful not to burn my stomach. then i got this crazy notion of being infertile cause one guy (cant rem who) said there's infra red and i thought my ovaries would be burnt or smth. HAHAHAHAHA. yes i have a wacked imagination. oh and we played this starring game during the bbq. it was fun! you just have to stand there with someone, and see who can maintain the stare the longest. as long as you laugh, you lose. the final match was down to weiming and dong dong. omg they were freaking good at it. they managed not to laugh for say, 20 mins? everyone tried to distract them. esp anthony. he was dancing and singing and all, but weiming and dong dong didnt budge. haha in the end, dong dong lost. wanna know why? because of me! muahahahahah. i went to get this plate of sausages and brought it under his nose. there was this burnt sausage so someone said "hey have a NIGGA SAUSAGE!" omfg hahhahahahhaa! and chris was like waving the aroma of the cooked sausages towards dong dong, so in the end he couldnt stand it, he laughed. LOL. and that declared weiming the undefeated champ of the STARRING COMPETITION. whoohooo!

after the bbq, we sang bev a birthday song and ate the cake. the cake was HUGE. thick dark CHOCOLATE FUDGE. MMMMMHMMMS. i felt like i was about to explode after the bbq. i seriously ate too much! i was so scared of gaining weight that i decided to skip breakfast and lunch today. well, i only managed to skip breakfast. stupid mummy had to tempt me by saying that we'll be going to crystal jade for lunch. of course, i was unable to resist that. haha!

ok i shall continue my movie marathon. wimbledon here i come!

first off, i want to wish bev happy birthday. HAPPY 17TH BEV! haha you're a year OLDER now. anyway school was super slack today. we watched a chinese movie, called perhaps love. takeshi was in it! he's so handsome.... but in the movie, he played a scary character who goes mad cause of this stupid bitch who forgets him after she got famous. die bitch! how can you forget about dear takeshi? tsk tsk. she's a slut too, she raped him. well not really rape, but she initiated the um ACT, he tried to resist but she pushed him down and all. you are gross, bitch. i know it's just a movie, but i really cant stand her character. she must be a really good actress, in order to evoke such strong feelings within me. haha

after the movie, bev, mich and me headed down to town to watch The Pursuit of Happiness. it was a nice movie, really sweet=) i smuggled in long john's silver combo 1 into the cinema. stupid coke leaked in my bag, so i went to the toilet to wash it and dripped some coke on the floor. then the cleaning auntie scolded me. WTH. this is your damn job, if you are so unhappy about cleaning up coke, then QUIT. i even said sorry so there was absolutely no need at all to swipe your bloody mop at my feet and scold me. damn you, old hag. went shopping after the movie, i bought a top from zara and bev bought shades from aldo. whoohoo! chris and dong dong joined us after that. chris is so funny! he walked up and down wisma about 5 times, trying to find us. hahahaha. then dong dong got irritated with him and scolded him. tsk tsk, bad dong dong! haha kidding.

met fel in school after that. we went to holland v and had dinner at nydc. i tried the bratwurst sandwich or smth like that and fel had 3 amigos. it was not bad! but as usual, i wasted quite alot. left behind the salad and fries. hahaha yes i know people are starving in africa, indonesia and god knows where, but sorry, i'm not someone to force myself to finish up my food even when i'm full. so if you have a problem with people like me wasting food, so sue me. we shared the mudpie jedi master. it was DEEELICIOUSS. i love the choco syrup! yums!

i am supposed to forget about you completely today. omg shit how?? i dont want to stop liking you cause it's hard to just ignore my feelings. but i have to do this, it's for the good of everyone. for me, cause i will be normal again, and for you and her. i know you like her alot and that she doesnt return your feelings. omg what's up with her??? she's sorta my friend and if she knew that i like you, she might not accept you. i dont want to be in the way for you guys, so that is why, i must must MUST forget you and flush my feelings for you down the stupid toiletbowl. omg i'm feeling damn sad now. i dont want to let you gooooo, noooooo speedo! oh my lord, tears are stinging my eyes now. SPEEDO I LIKE YOU SO MUCH THAT IT HURTS TO LET YOU GO! AHHHHH SPEEEDOOOOOOO!!!!!

i often ask myself why i like you. from the second day of school, i already liked you. you wore your glasses then and looked kinda dorky. i have no idea what the hell drew me to you. speedo, did you cast a spell on me or something?? if you did, undo it now! everytime i see you, my heart races. everytime i hear your name, i smile. everytime i hear your voice, i feel warm. and everytime you look at me, i lose myself. this is it speedo, tonight is the night that i will forget you. you have made me cry, laugh and fail tests. i know i am the stupidest girl in this world for feeling this way about a guy. goodbye speedo, thank you for making me happy and sad. so many times, you made my day. i want to thank you for that. i wish you all the best with her. you two look great together. if she rejects you, dont give up, cause i believe that you'll win her over someday. omg i dont want to end this, ahhhhh!

after this night, you're no longer speedo. you're no longer the guy who can change my world. you're just a guy, a normal guy that i will never look at again. i will look past you and treat you as invisible. bye speedo. it all ends here tonight.

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