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Tuesday, June 19, 2007, 5:24 AM
this entry is dedicated to poko, if you dont like mushy stuff, then i suggest you not read it.
well what do you know, in a blink of an eye, two wonderful months has passed. today is the 2nd month anniversary for poko and i. whoohoo! thinking back to the day he confessed his feelings, it really seems just like yesterday that that happened. sometimes, i still cant believe all this is real. it's just too good to be true.
he probably doesnt remember, but i actually remember our first conversation. it was first day of orientation and we were having our break. he was sitting opposite me. i realised that he was very quiet so i asked him what subjects did he apply for in jc. he replied softly, "physics,econs,maths,geog". and i went "whoa you take geog? that's quite boring right?" and he laughed and agreed with me and that marked the start of our friendship.
a few of us in our ig stayed close although we were in different classes by then. we would talk online and meet up occasionally. i still remember our ig's first outing. it was at sentosa! ahhh the good times. i remember him teaching us how to play frisbee on the beach. haha i'm such a loser, i screamed and panicked when the frisbee landed in my hands. haha! i still remember jiajun making some weird noises to alert his team mates to pass the frisbee towards him, the noise went smth like "sooot sooooot". HAHA DAMN FUNNY MAN. oh speaking of jiajun, i know how terrified you are of him cause you think that he is hitting on you right? LOL! i remember him calling you pretty boy and him stripping you. HAHAHAHA! awww my poor poko! lol if jiajun does that again, i'll slap him for you! haha!
oh yeah, remember how our hearts got broken by our past eye candies? it was really depressing man. i remember her completely ignoring you and just focused her attention on another guy, how sad and hurt you felt. i also felt sad for you, i tried my best to cheer you up but eventually i ran out of ways. thankfully you got over her quickly, thanks to the power of friendships huh? lol. as for my case, i cant believe how stupid i was with speedo. that guy doesnt even know me and yet i cried for him. how dumb can i get? yes, so because we felt so depressed over our eye candies, we made a promise to each other to remain single throughout jc.
i stayed true to that promise for about a month or so, until the day i realised that i had feelings for you. haha oh boy, i remember that day. i started panicking and felt really bad. it was so sudden! but when i thought about it, maybe those feelings were there all along. i remember the time when you first taught me pool, how my heart started to pound hard when you stood close to me. and how, unconsciously, i would talk about you to my friends. haha i'm glad that you didnt notice my feelings or not things would definitely be weird between us. well, it took about a month later for you to confess your feelings. i remember that night, how happy i felt, how i started bouncing up and down on my seat and laughed and squealed. it was like a dream come true. my friends kept telling me that you liked me, but i refused to believe them until i hear it from you.
i'm so glad that we were good friends before we became something more. my feelings for you have definitely grown. you're always on my mind and the thought of seeing you again always gets me all excited sort of like a kid attending the first day of primary school. this may sound cheesy but i think every single day, i find myself falling in love with you, once again. i know i know, that's very cheesy but it's true! haha! i dont think i'll ever get sick of your super cute face and of couse, your heart melting eyes. LOL. every single time you reach for my hands, my heart feels warm and fuzzy. and everytime we let go, i feel empty. saying goodbye to you is always the hardest, i always have this urge to turn around and run back towards you, but then i think of my parents waiting impatiently for me at some pickup point and i will have to force myself to not look back and keep walking.
i keep telling bev that i think i've fallen deeply in love with you and she told me yesterday that she thinks you feel the same way, but once again, i didnt want to believe it unless it was from you. this afternoon, when i read the poem you wrote for me, telling me that you love me, well what did i do? i cried. yes, i actually cried! tears of joy, of course! haha.
if anyone asks me, what i love most about you, i wont be able to reply them. cause there's just so many things. from the way you smile at me, all the way to how you love babies' mittens. perfections and imperfections, everything, i love them all.
happy anniversary, sweet poko. i love you very much, always have, always will=)
