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Wednesday, December 5, 2007, 7:37 PM
it never seems to end. really, all i see is just more problems coming my way. why is it always like that? i do something and instead of making it better, i've only made things worse. i think i know why. its cause i'm too dumb to think of the consequences. if i think that doing this would make it better, i just go ahead and do it, without thinking otherwise if it may have reverse effects. that just makes me a rash idiot doesnt it?
i know that they care about me. cause they keep trying to find ways to let me know. and when people feel angry, hurt, sad and disappointed, their words tend to be harsher. right now, i'm calm about it. staying calm is the only way for me to process what they say and react to it. cause when i'm extremely angry or sad, i cant think properly. and i'll just accept everything. which i've realised isnt right, cause its important to be honest. without honesty, nothing can be solved.
everyone changes, you all know that. but i feel that no matter how much you change, there is still a you inside there somewhere. i thought they failed to see that, and i was really puzzled and frustrated. i mean, they are my friends, why cant they see that i'm still me on the inside, despite how i changed on the outside? she said she sees it, thats why she keeps trying. okay i'm glad she does, but on that night, it really didnt seem that way.
i am not going to defend myself on this blog, cause it may once again have the reverse effect from what i want. i feel that what we all need now is a discussion, definitely not an argument. being angry wont solve anything. so pls guys, lets not get angry with one another ok?
